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  • Run, Hide, Repeat

  • A Memoir of a Fugitive Childhood
  • Written by: Pauline Dakin
  • Narrated by: Pauline Dakin
  • Length: 10 hrs and 11 mins
  • 4.2 out of 5 stars (63 ratings)

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Run, Hide, Repeat

Written by: Pauline Dakin
Narrated by: Pauline Dakin
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Publisher's Summary

2018 winner of the Atlantic Book Awards - Margaret and John Savage First Book Award

2018 winner of the British Columbia's National Award for Canadian Non-Fiction

2018 winner of the Edna Staebler Award for Creative Non-Fiction

2018 winner of the Evelyn Richardson Non-fiction Award

2018 winner of the Frank Hegyi Award for Emerging Authors

An unforgettable family tale of deception and betrayal, love and forgiveness

Pauline Dakin spent her childhood on the run. Without warning, her mother twice uprooted her and her brother, moving thousands of miles away from family and friends. Disturbing events interrupted their outwardly normal life: break-ins, car thefts, even physical attacks on a family friend. Many years later, her mother finally revealed they'd been running from the Mafia and were receiving protection from a covert anti-organized crime task force.

But the truth was even more bizarre. Gradually Dakin's fears gave way to suspicion. She put her journalistic training to work and discovered that the Mafia threat was actually an elaborate web of lies. As she revisits her past, Dakin uncovers the human capacity for betrayal and deception and the power of love to forgive.

Run, Hide, Repeat is a memoir of a childhood steeped in unexplained fear and menace. Gripping and suspenseful, it moves from Dakin's uneasy acceptance of her family's dire situation to bewildered anger. As compelling and twisted as a thriller, Run Hide Repeat is an unforgettable portrait of a family under threat and the resilience of family bonds.

©2017 Pauline Dakin (P)2017 Penguin Random House Canada

What the critics say

"What happens when 'Fake News' takes over your family? This harrowing true story reads like a psychological thriller - I was haunted by it." (Plum Johnson, author of They Left Us Everything)
"From a childhood marked by secrets and sudden moves to an adulthood where truth - and lies - of the past are laid bare, Run, Hide, Repeat is a fascinating story of family, deception, and forgiveness." (Sonja Larsen, author of Red Star Tattoo)

“Mystery rolls in like the tide in this story - without fail, over and over.” (Chatelaine)

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Amazing story

Fascinating in so many ways. A story of love and forgiveness. Well written and and excellent audio book read by the author herself. Highly recommend.

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crazy story

if u like true crime and you love a crazy story you'll never hear again I'll like this one. also we'll reader and well narrated.

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hard to believe, but harder to not believe

I was first encountered with this story through podcast " run hide repeat." So, I had known the entire story when I started reading/listening, but I still was taken by the story with details revealed to me. I actually do not know how to remark this story, but I would recommend to others to read/ listen to this book.

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  • Kay
  • 2021-11-12

Truth is stranger than fiction

I was given this book to read as part of a book club ..

While listening had so many holes and none believe facts … half way through I had to look up it ! Then couldn’t stop to try and figure out how it was a memoir.

Left me wanting to know and also more questions and help this woman reclaim or understand her life.

There’s so much more to it , there has to be to solve or help understand why people do the things they do.

She started out strong writing into the beginning then I think she’s so overwhelmed and just so busy with her children and life to try and sort it out.

We all have a story to tell

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Started good but...

It started out interesting but overtime I lost interest. I found that there was a lot of recapping of things I already knew, and the story just dragged on. I really wanted to like this but the once the middle of the story hit, it just moved too slow. #Audible1

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What a surprise!

This is a really good book. Amazing on how the author coped. I could stop listening. #Audible1

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mind blown

starts off great and develops like it is another mobster/heidt stioty but makes a sharp turn, ,
maybe catching some but ends with dealing with mental illness. BRAVO!!

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Emotional albeit kind of rambly

I like Pauline's story in this book however I feel like much of the book's structure was a little haphazard. This was probably due to how she compiled it from an exhaustive array of reference material stretching from all sorts of time periods. A good example is it feels a tad too focused on her own life and that of her extended family and not enough about the story of Stan and his delusions. Which I found far more interesting.

At the same time I'm probably not the target audience. Still, her vocal performance is extremely good and lends a lot more to this story than I initially expected. It's easily better as an audio book than as something you read by yourself.

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Not investigative journalism

This is a unique memoir, but it’s not the story of a journalist uncovering the truth. She doesn’t “investigate” nor does she dig deep into the lies by interviewing characters or dissecting events. It’s more the long and detailed reading of a journal. Given that, it’s fine. But be aware this is not the story of investigative journalism. The author runs in circles to prove how much her abusers loved her and speculates on the causes of their action without gathering other evidence.

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  • Kay
  • 2023-05-07

A Performative Memoir

This title barely touches on the shared delusion of what the couple thought was real and is instead just a performative memoir that spends more time recapping the author’s childhood before the folie á deux affected them and how they reconnected and lived out their life with their ailing parent.

If you are looking for a first person account of what life is like with a parent in this delusional state then skip this story. The author only briefly touches on it and then continues to write a memoir about her life as an obnoxious teen and how she tried to repair her relationship later in life with her then terminally ill mother.



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