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  • Growing Up on Methamphetamines
  • Written by: Nic Sheff
  • Narrated by: Paul Michael Garcia
  • Length: 12 hrs and 17 mins
  • 4.6 out of 5 stars (103 ratings)

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Tweak

Written by: Nic Sheff
Narrated by: Paul Michael Garcia
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Publisher's Summary

Nic Sheff was drunk for the first time at age 11. In the years that followed, he would regularly smoke pot, do cocaine and ecstasy, and develop addictions to crystal meth and heroin. Even so, he felt like he would always be able to quit and put his life together whenever he needed to. It took a violent relapse one summer in California to convince him otherwise. 

In writing that is raw and honest, Nic spares no detail in telling us the compelling, heartbreaking, and true story of his relapse and the road to recovery. As we watch Nic plunge the mental and physical depths of drug addiction, he paints a picture of a person at odds with his past, with his family, with his substances, and with himself.

©2007 Nic Sheff (P)2008 Blackstone Audio, Inc.

What the critics say

"Garcia delivers a strong and commanding reading that perfectly expresses the rawness of Sheff's most personal recollections….Endlessly memorable." (AudioFile Magazine)

"Garcia becomes Sheff, offering a gritty and raw performance that demonstrates just how dire the circumstances surrounding Sheff's existence really were." (Publishers Weekly)  

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Disappointing to say the least...

After reading “Beautiful Boy” and loving it, I was so excited for “Tweak” because I assumed it would provide the son’s perspective on what would be, more or less, the same story told previously by his father. I was dying to hear how Nic’s view of his childhood and relationships with his family affected his ultimate decent into Meth addiction and how those views differed from his father’s. “Beautiful Boy” had been so insightful and fascinating and I expected the same from “Tweak”. Unfortunately this book was a massive disappointment from page one. For starters, as far as writing quality goes, this kid certainly isn’t his father. There is so much potential for a great book here but it seems that this kid just has no idea how to write it. He needed a strong co-author or at very least, an incredible editor to help him out. He drones on and on, going into moment to moment detail about the most mundane aspects of his story and then hardly touches on the interesting stuff I really wanted to know about. Secondly, if you are expecting the flip side of “Beautiful Boy”, you aren’t going to get it. “Beautiful Boy” centered around a father’s relationship with his addicted son, but “Tweak” is a long, rambling, at times boring, story about the authors experience, his relationship with his father is a very weak sub plot at best. The author, who’s father wrote to be so complex and lovable in “Beautiful Boy”, comes off like an entitled douche bag in his own book. You can blame that on the author’s inability to portray his own complexity properly in words but it’s very difficult to hang with this kid to the end of the book when you want to punch him in the face. Finally, the performance of the audiobook was tragic. The narrator has a very proper delivery, he enunciates every word perfectly, however, the book is written very causally, using a lot of “you know”s and “whatever”s etc. it was a total mismatch and hard to listen to from beginning to end. As someone who read “Beautiful Boy” first, I can’t speak to how this book might hold up alone, but I can say that having read it first, this book is a massive disappointment.

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Narrator ruins it

It sounds like a robot is reading this book. I've read the book myself and the narrator completely ruins it. Wish I never paid for it.

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fascinating

I love it! Deeply honest account of a self inflicted tortured life and the road to redemption.

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So truthful

Such a amazing and truthful story it’s filled with so much personal details that surprises me that he shared . I really enjoyed this book and enjoyed reading he’s father book beautiful boy first which really was exiting to compare both of their perspectives on the same situation

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Bipolar

I can really identify with what he’s going through. Thank you for writing this it means a lot to me

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Amazing and beautiful work of art

I am floored by this book, Nicks experience and his way of telling it, completely captures the essence of what it means to struggle with depression, addiction, and family trauma. I’ve watched the Beautiful Boy movie already but holy moly this book completely dove into Nicks life in a way the movie did not, and for that I think it’s worth the listen and I appreciate how raw and honest and genuine he tells his stories.

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Memoir

It was an interesting memoir, although It seemed to end rather abruptly.

I was sure as I was listening that it was the author reading it. That means, to me, that the narrator did a great job.

As someone in recovery I always enjoy listening to others experiences, and this one did not disappoint. It wasn’t preachy, as some go. It could be considered triggering I suppose, but I’m at the stage where I want to hear it all. Use your own discretion.

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sparing no detail was a solid choice

This really puts you in the mind of someone strung out on meth. And the repetition of words and what not adds to it.

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Gut wrenching

This book is raw and real. It will bring tears to your eyes and pull feelings you didn’t know you could feel out. The first hand telling of life addicted is eye opening to say the least. Nic tells his story with brutal honesty leaving nothing unsaid.

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Love this book.

Helped me understand my fathers addiction. Love the details, really puts you in the mindset

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