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If I Can't Have You

Written by: Gregg Olsen, Rebecca Morris
Narrated by: Laural Merlington, Kevin Pierce
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Best-selling author Gregg Olsen and co-author Rebecca Morris investigate one of the 21st Century's most puzzling disappearances and how it resulted in the murder of two children by their father.

Every once in a great while a genuine murder mystery unfolds before the eyes of the American public. The tragic story of Susan Powell and her murdered boys, Charlie and Braden, is the only case that rivals the Jon Benet Ramsey saga in the annals of true crime. When the pretty, blonde Utah mother went missing in December of 2009 the media was swept up in the story - with lenses and microphones trained on Susan's husband, Josh. He said he had no idea what happened to his young wife, and that he and the boys had been camping in the middle of a snowstorm.

Over the next three years bombshell by bombshell, the story would reveal more shocking secrets. Josh's father, Steve, who was sexually obsessed with Susan, would ultimately be convicted of unspeakable perversion. Josh's brother, Michael, would commit suicide. And in the most stunning event of them all, Josh Powell would murder his two little boys and kill himself with brutality beyond belief.

©2014 gregg olsen and rebecca morris (P)2014 gregg olsen

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well narrated

very well narrated. enjoyed every second . sad story . heart felt condolences for susan and her mom and dad .

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very interesting...

This story was very interesting. I didnt know all that much about what had happened. It was interesting to hear about the journals that helped with some questions being able to be answered.

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Horrific story.A well written detailed true event!

Anything this messed up... is worth a listen! A true crime story, with so many oddities and odd things that continue to pop up throughout the book, they just keep you hooked. The poor woman was sadly mixed up with a weirdo husband...not to mention HIS CRAZY, nut-job FATHER!!! Poor girl should have tried to move home with HER PARENTS for safety when her gut told her her hubby was just a 'tad' INSANE!!! She could have taken those darling babies with her...
BRUTAL SITUATION EXCELLENT BOOK
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Excellent storytelling

Very easy to listen to, and gives a well informed recounting of this sad case from beginning to end. I highly recommend this book to anyone looking for the whole story.

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interesting real life case but

I don't know what the reader does for a job: he'd make a fine news reader but he lacks the dynamics for a story read aloud. it is entirely possible that he is capable of more than he did in this particular story but it doesn't show. if it wasn't for the story itself and my wanting to know how it all came out, I would never have finished

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great story

great story very tragic though deffinently cried.
would recommend, good read for sure. . .

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liked it

I enjoyed this book. I wasn't a fan of the weird robotic voice used for the female parts and I got confused in a couple spots because of the jumping around in the timeline but it will be a repeat listen anyways.

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Warning: incredibly sad(der) at the end

I heard about this from a true crime podcast. This story takes you way more in depth on what happened. I highly recommend.

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Great story

This book was a tragedy from start to finish. The story was very well narrated and Def bought tears to my eyes. I felt so sad for those boys and the whole family. Josh's whole family was a wreck.. Omg.. What a sad shame

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Sad story with shocking twists

it was well told with lots of details about the case. I did not follow the case when it was in the media. The end was shocking and sad.

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