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  • The True Story of Dying Ten Times to Live
  • Written by: Heather B. Armstrong
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  • Length: 6 hrs and 48 mins
  • 4.7 out of 5 stars (53 ratings)

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The Valedictorian of Being Dead

Written by: Heather B. Armstrong
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From New York Times best-selling author and blogger Heather B. Armstrong comes an honest and irreverent memoir - reminiscent of the New York Times best seller Brain on Fire - about her experience as the third person ever to participate in an experimental treatment for depression involving 10 rounds of a chemically induced coma approximating brain death.

For years, Heather B. Armstrong has alluded to her struggle with depression on her website, dooce. It’s scattered throughout her archive, where it weaves its way through posts about pop culture, music, and motherhood. In 2016, Heather found herself in the depths of a depression she just couldn’t shake, an episode darker and longer than anything she had previously experienced. She had never felt so discouraged by the thought of waking up in the morning, and it threatened to destroy her life. For the sake of herself and her family, Heather decided to risk it all by participating in an experimental clinical trial.

Now, for the first time, Heather recalls the torturous 18 months of suicidal depression she endured and the monthlong experimental study in which doctors used propofol anesthesia to quiet all brain activity for a full 15 minutes before bringing her back from a flatline. Ten times. The experience wasn’t easy. Not for Heather or her family. But a switch was flipped, and Heather hasn’t experienced a single moment of suicidal depression since.

“Breathtakingly honest” (Lisa Genova, New York Times best-selling author), self-deprecating, and scientifically fascinating, The Valedictorian of Being Dead brings to light a groundbreaking new treatment for depression.

The Valedictorian of Being Dead was previously published with the subtitle “The True Story of Dying Ten Times to Live.”

PLEASE NOTE: When you purchase this title, the accompanying PDF will be available in your Audible Library along with the audio.

©2019 Heather B. Armstrong (P)2019 Simon & Schuster

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Brilliant, raw, heartbreaking

Just completed this, @dooce’s last novel. Her read is raw and heartbreaking and clever and oh-so-funny. She was a trailblazer for women’s voices, especially mothers, and her candor about that journey made life bearable for so many, myself included. Rest in power, Heather. And thank you. 💕🙏🪽

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A must read.

I have followed your blog since the early years and it is nice to finally meet YOU. Your sharing of this journey is groundbreakingly beautiful and inspires such hope for those of us who currently feel or have battled that despair. Thank you for taking the leap into The Abyss, bringing the awareness to your platforms and sharing your journey with all of us. Your bravery in narrating it, hearing you speak through your tears-the authenticity with which you’ve given voice to your book and the subject matter is powerful. I am so thankful to have received these messages and while you didn’t ask for a review from this total stranger, I feel like I actually know the real you now and I have to say that the grace with which you were able to share your story without vilifying either of your main antagonists is beautiful. #endthestigma This. Everyone affected by depression/anxiety/panic needs to read this.

ETA: If you or someone you know and love battles depression this book will help you understand. Read. It. Now.

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Candid, moving, and full of hope

Gives an incredibly candid and authentic account of what this disease feels like- everyone who has lived it themselves, or who has a loved one with depression, will be well served to read this. Heather’s narration is raw and real and pitch perfect.

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A very brave woman

Having the author read the story seemed to make her relive such tragic memories and emotions. This added greatly to the story.

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Incredible story about depression

One of the best books I've ever read about the experience of depression. Also, the narration was second to none. Thank you, Heather, for writing this book.

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Amazing

This journey is a story so many of us can relate to and was beyond words..... it was simply excellent!

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Book that might have changed my life

I am kind of jealous for the author going through this trial. If I don't get the chance to as well, I hope I overcome my illness as she did. Book was written beautifully and I felt every word. One of the best books out there for mood disorders.

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