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In My Own Moccasins
- A Memoir of Resilience
- Narrated by: Helen Knott
- Length: 8 hrs and 54 mins
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Publisher's Summary
Helen Knott, a highly accomplished Indigenous woman, seems to have it all. But in her memoir, she offers a different perspective. In My Own Moccasins is an unflinching account of addiction, intergenerational trauma, and the wounds brought on by sexual violence. It is also the story of sisterhood, the power of ceremony, the love of family, and the possibility of redemption.
With gripping moments of withdrawal, times of spiritual awareness, and historical insights going back to the signing of Treaty 8 by her great-great grandfather, Chief Bigfoot, her journey exposes the legacy of colonialism, while reclaiming her spirit.
What the critics say
2020, RBC Taylor Prize, Long-listed
2020, Saskatchewan Book Award for Non-Fiction, Winner
“An incredible debut that documents how trauma and addiction can be turned into healing and love. I am in awe of Helen Knott and her courage. I am a fan for life. Wow.” (Richard Van Camp, author of The Lesser Blessed)
“Heartfelt, heartbreaking, triumphant and raw, In My Own Moccasins is a must-read for anyone who's ever felt lost in their life… Actually, it's a must-read for anyone who appreciates stories of struggle, redemption and healing. Knott’s writing is confident, clear, powerful and inspiring.” (Jowita Bydlowska, author of Guy: A Novel and Drunk Mom)
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- tara
- 2021-10-12
Beautiful
Heartbreaking Beautiful and inspiring, such an important story to tell that was beautifully written. The author reads and has a voice that is easy to listen to
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- Julia Mark
- 2021-12-12
Heart-wretchingly Honest
An excellent look at a Helen's struggles and resilience. Some aspects of the book are hard to hear, but the author speaks from personal experiences of her struggles with addiction, sexual abuse, and ultimately overcoming and speaking her truth to find healing. This provides an excellent look into understanding one indigenous women's struggles and some of the problems that are prevalent in Canada. I recommend this book, especially if seeking to have further understanding in steps to reconciliation.
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- Yvonne Carothers
- 2022-11-08
Powerful, incredibly brave and educational
Wow. What a brave woman. Such a powerful memoir of a never-give-up indigenous woman and her family’s dogged triumph over the myriad of issues and problems she faced in her healing journey. Her story gave me a better understanding of colonialism and the impact it has had on generations of indigenous people. Heartbreaking, illuminating, but hopeful.
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- lucy
- 2022-05-13
My story too
It felt like she was telling me my story and I just cried right through the whole book. Thank you so much 💕 I'm so proud of you 👏 Hiy hiy I recommend this to those who are suffering in their own different way.
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- Anonymous User
- 2022-06-27
Brave Warrior Woman
This is my second time listening to this compelling life account of Helen Knott. I’m grateful for your honesty. I’m so sorry that this was your life. Your story will reach someone who’s grasping at life. Thank you, thank you, thank you. O’Siem
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- Amazon Customer
- 2021-09-13
Love this book
Helen's book is touching but most of all, it is inspiring. It shows we can survive difficulties when surrounded by our culture and the people who love and support us.
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- Melissa dano
- 2023-04-05
Meegwetch
I didn't feel so alone after listening to this. It was a gift from my brother 🪶
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- T Woodward
- 2023-08-12
Thank you Helen!!!!
So sad to hear what Helen Knott went through, but, at the same time, it is wonderful news to see how she made it through and recovered her life back!!
Absolutely perfect narration too!!
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- Tim C.
- 2021-10-12
Mandatory reading for any Canadian
Helen tells her story and the story of too many others who have grown up in a world made for them, that did not care about them. In all of the ugliness of her story, she finds beauty, and life made for living.
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- Anonymous User
- 2023-02-22
Sacred truth of Resilience
A hearts wide open view of living the truth of abuse and addiction. Definitely worth reading and I honour Helen for bringing this compelling story to light. May be hard for those who have been through similar journeys yet she shows the way from the ashes to others travelling the black road to a new way on the red road! Women warriors speak
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