Like millions of teens, Renee suffered in silence behind a happy facade.

To Disappear Quietly is a contemporary YA coming-of-age novel that carries the emotional truth of a memoir. Beautifully written with raw, unflinching honesty, it invites listeners inside the hidden side of teenage anxiety—the silent panic, eating disorders, self-harm, and the crushing weight of trying to be “fine” for everyone else.

Inspired by real emotions and authentic experiences, author Renee Lovange shares her journey for the first time: from panic attacks and the pressure to fit in, through the wrong choices made just to avoid being left behind, to the urge to disappear so no one would get hurt—until she realises she has lost her true self.

Building on the world behind Dealing with Teen Anxiety, the guide Renee co-wrote with her mother, this novel shows what it actually feels like to live inside the storm—and how the slow, messy work of staying can begin.

To Disappear Quietly gives a voice to:

• Teens who feel unseen, misunderstood, or overwhelmed

• Parents who want to understand what’s really happening inside

• Anyone who has ever wanted to vanish—and is just starting to believe they might be able to stay

With honesty, vulnerability, and a quiet thread of resilience running through every chapter, this story reminds us that feelings are not facts—and that even in our darkest moments, belonging and joy are still possible. If you’ve ever felt invisible or on the edge of disappearing, this book is your reminder that you are not alone.