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  • Gentleness - When everything is your gift from God. ACIM - Manual for Teachers

    Gentleness - When everything is your gift from God. ACIM - Manual for Teachers
    Feb 23 2026
    Reflection on Non-Judgment: The conversation shifted to a check-in on the previous week's practice of not judging, which was generally positive, prompting Soo Kim to ask for clarification on the difference between judgment and discernment. Jevon Perra initially requested a pause for the conversation to organize, noting Denise Darlene's quick start, but the discussion soon moved forward, focusing on these key spiritual concepts.Distinction Between Judgment and Discernment: Denise Darlene proposed that discernment and wisdom are the same, suggesting that judgment stems from fear and lacks peace, often involving labels and coming from the ego. Wisdom and discernment, conversely, come from love and result in peace. Jevon Perra cautioned that a form of discernment could still be rooted in fear, using the concept to create separation or a feeling of superiority.Peace as an Indicator for Wisdom: Denise Darlene maintained that if guidance is coming from a place of peace, it is wisdom guided by the Holy Spirit, which is a core concept in the Course in Miracles. Jevon Perra agreed that the presence of peace, love, and joy serves as an indicator of alignment, while experiences outside of peace, such as anger or frustration, signal alignment with the ego. Jevon Perra shared a personal anecdote of growing up in a religious family that misused "discernment" to enforce fear, highlighting that the resulting lack of peace was a clear sign they needed to leave the environment, demonstrating true discernment.Discussion on the Show Quantum Leap: Jevon Perra used the plot of the television show Quantum Leap as a metaphor for consciousness and purpose, where the character Sam Beckett leaps into different bodies to accomplish missions they do not remember. Brian Genovese, who loves the show, clarified that the mission is to set right what once went wrong, and once accomplished, the character leaps to the next adventure. Jevon Perra connected the show’s themes to the idea that we are consciousness having an experience, which Brian Genovese agreed is a much deeper concept than people realize.Peace as a Guide and Awareness of Attachment: Denise Darlene restated the initial card's message that truth will correct all errors and that peace is the guide indicating alignment with the Holy Spirit. Jevon Perra noted that they can quickly tell when they are not in peace, which is always due to some attachment or idea of separation they are unwilling to let go of. They affirmed that the work involves bringing in and finding the truth to create the experience of peace.Clarification of "Truth": Soo Kim challenged the phrase "self-truth," suggesting that the focus should be on capital "T" Truth, representing non-duality, oneness, and unity, which is the voice of the Holy Spirit. Denise Darlene agreed that this pursuit of Truth often feels like death or betrayal, but confirms that this feeling is an indication they are on the right track.Reading from Manual for Teachers on Gentleness: The group decided to continue reading the "Manual for Teachers" from the Course in Miracles, focusing on the section "Gentleness". Soo Kim read that harm is impossible for God's teachers because it is the outcome of judgment and the denial of learning, making the Holy Spirit's lessons impossible to learn. Jevon Perra related the concept to a play, suggesting that consciousness is neither the hero nor the villain, and that believing in harming or saving is an attachment.The Strength of Gentleness: Soo Kim continued the reading, emphasizing that God's teachers are wholly gentle because gentleness is the strength needed for salvation to become easy. Jevon Perra described gentleness through the analogy of kindly waking a child from a nightmare, where the gentle voice of the Holy Spirit calls them out of the illusion. Jevon Perra offered a personal example of practicing gentleness in a relationship through non-resistance, which involved maintaining a state of "No, honey, it's okay" to diffuse conflict.Gentleness, Non-Resistance, and the Pain Body: Brian Genovese affirmed that Jevon Perra's non-resistance was successful because it denied the other person's ego the energy it sought to feed its "pain body," a concept also discussed by Eckhart Tolle. Denise Darlene added that kindness, not judgment or punishment, is what leads to repentance, echoing Christian scripture and the power of non-resistance in situations of conflict. Denise Darlene recounted an experience with their critical mother, noting that quiet non-engagement eventually exhausts the criticism, making them a less favorable person to complain to.The Choice Between Separation and Christ's Vision: Jevon Perra summarized the two ways of seeing the world: the world of separation, sin, and guilt (ego's perception), and Christ's vision (heaven on earth), which sees abundance, connection, and love. Jevon Perra stated that one cannot hold both visions simultaneously and that giving up the "games" of separation ...
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    50 min
  • Judging is Self-Deception - ACIM - Manual for Teachers

    Judging is Self-Deception - ACIM - Manual for Teachers
    Feb 20 2026
    Starting the Manual for Teachers Reading: Jevon Perra and Denise Darlene discussed how the lessons and teachings from the course can seep in over time without systematic study. Jevon Perra announced they would be reading "Tolerance," the third characteristic of God's teachers, starting on page 12 of the Manual for Teachers.Reading and Discussion on Tolerance and Judgment: Jevon Perra read that God’s teachers do not judge, as judgment implies a lack of trust and self-deception. Jevon Perra observed that judgment assumes a position one does not have and that without judgment, all things are equally acceptable. Jevon Perra connected the deception to separation and the "zero sum game" mentality, where their gain means someone else's loss.Judgment and Ego Control: Denise Darlene proposed that judgment is a form of control by the ego, which seeks safety by determining if something is good or bad. Denise Darlene emphasized that everything is neutral and that judging separates one from their "best interest," citing the card, "I do not perceive my own best interest". Brian Genovese connected judging to concepts of good and evil, noting their sensitivity to bullying and instinct to fight injustice.Neutrality and Best Interests: Denise Darlene asked Brian Genovese to consider if the act of bullying could be a neutral event that ultimately provides a gift for the person being bullied. Brian Genovese acknowledged that their experience of being bullied gave them empathy, suggesting the event, while difficult at the time, resulted in a valuable lesson. Denise Darlene concluded that if they do not know their own best interest, they cannot possibly know someone else's best interest, suggesting that intervening in harm should be done without hatred or fear.The Gift of Reality and Trust in the Creator: Jevon Perra suggested that preference is similar to judging, as it separates one from the "gift of reality". Jevon Perra discussed that every experience is potentially a gift and a teaching from the creator, even the "bad ones," which were chosen in an ultimate sense. The discussion shifted to the concept of resting in God, which Jevon Perra stated is their daily reminder.Suffering and The Character: Jevon Perra reflected on how the ego can cause suffering and separation from contentment regardless of what the "character" is doing, such as when they are too frustrated or lost in the character. Jevon Perra brought up the concept of fighting for what one wants "like you're right, but listen like you're wrong," suggesting a lack of attachment to the outcome. Jevon Perra used the example of their spouse, Carolyn, getting upset during games like Monopoly or Catan, demonstrating the pain of attachment to winning.Lowering Expectations: Denise Darlene related the concept of non-attachment to lowering expectations, noting that one's response to events reveals if they have expectations. Denise Darlene described practicing non-attachment, particularly when ordering food or traveling with their spouse, Joe, by holding their day loosely and using the Course in Miracles prayer: "What would you have me do? Where would you have me go? What would you have me say? And to whom?".Enneagram and Attachment: Denise Darlene brought up their son, Charlie, who is an Enneagram Seven, noting that Sevens constantly plan for an "amazing, incredible experience" and therefore live with tremendous disappointment because life is not Disneyland every day. Jevon Perra shared a story where Charlie cried hysterically because they were going to Starbucks for treats instead of Dunkin’ Donuts, illustrating Charlie’s attachment to a specific outcome.Applying Non-Attachment to Daily Life: Jevon Perra observed that not everyone has the luxury of being contemplative, but they can still apply the principles of non-attachment and curiosity in a 9-to-5 job by trusting God in all outcomes. Denise Darlene affirmed this, stating one can have a checklist but needs to hold it loosely, using their son Jonathan's house remodeling project as an example of having to continually adapt to unexpected challenges and interruptions.Idols and Undivided Devotion: Denise Darlene used Jevon Perra's anxiety about Carolyn not being "okay" to point out that they had placed Carolyn on a throne as an idol, suggesting they were relating to them as God. Denise Darlene explained that God desires undivided devotion and recognition, stating that the "many gods" or idols we create "wreck our life" because we try to serve them. Denise Darlene then read from Neville Goddard's collection on Christian mysticism to define the "Word" as a desire seeking embodiment and the "I am" as the only reality.The Power of "I Am": The reading explained that to realize one's desire, the awareness ("I am") must agree with the desire, which results in the birth of the desired outcome. Denise Darlene concluded that Jevon Perra was trying to borrow peace and worth from Carolyn instead of cultivating it within ...
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    1 h et 3 min
  • Only the Honest can be Content -ACIM. manual for teachers

    Only the Honest can be Content -ACIM. manual for teachers
    Feb 16 2026

    Reference Material for the Course: The speakers briefly discussed related literature, with Jevon Perra mentioning Ken Wapnick's commentary as a great resource, identifying them as the original editor. They also agreed that the book The Disappearance of the Universe is an amazing starting point for anyone engaging with the material, as it provides a valuable take on the course's concepts.

    Transition to the Lesson on Honesty: Jevon Perra introduced the current lesson from the Manual for Teachers, focusing on the topic of honesty, following the previous section on the development of trust. The conversation began with the principle that all other desirable traits rest on trust, allowing one to see the value in honesty.

    Scarcity and Trust: Jevon Perra related the concept of trust to personal struggles, specifically describing falling into "scarcity death loops" where they feel the need to constantly work and achieve to ensure things will be okay. This activity is viewed as a source of separation and anxiety, which Brian Genovese resonated with, sharing a similar tendency toward self-torture despite achieving success.

    Honesty as Consistency and Integrity: The speakers defined honesty as consistency, meaning there is no conflict between what one says, thinks, or does, and no word or thought opposes another. Jevon Perra connected this definition to the concept of integrity, using the analogy of structural integrity in construction to illustrate being aligned and capable of handling stress.

    Integrity in Personal and Business Conduct: The discussion explored how integrity, or internal alignment, could exist even in people who are unpleasant, as illustrated by Brian Genovese's anecdote about their grandfather's practice of expressing negative thoughts to prevent health issues. Jevon Perra extended this idea to business, noting the importance of clear intentions, even when they are exploitative, contrasting this with dishonest business practices like undisclosed loan points.

    Ethics, Morality, and Non-Dualism: Jevon Perra contrasted ethics and morality—which are defined by rules for being a "good person" that change over time and place—with a non-dual perspective, which posits there is only one game and one player. In this non-dual view, the apparent universe requires roles like "takers" and "givers" for the drama game to exist, chosen by consciousness itself.

    Honesty with Self and the Illusion of Separation: Jevon Perra returned to the idea of honesty being self-deception, which is the root of conflict and anxiety when one's actions contradict their stated trust in a higher power. The belief in one's separate body and the resultant fear of death or scarcity is what causes suffering, although the true self is eternal.

    The Mind of God and the "Mad Idea" of Separation: Jevon Perra further detailed the non-dual concept of consciousness projecting the universe as a "step-down" of pure power, allowing for the experience of being a separate person. This separation originated from the "crazy mad idea" in the mind of God about what it would be like to not be one, leading to the projection of guilt, sin, and death.

    Contentment Through Acceptance and Trust: The final segment focused on achieving contentment by accepting life exactly as it is, trusting that it is what the true self or God desires. Jevon Perra argued that true contentment comes from letting go of striving and desire, which allows one to change the entire world because the world is a projection of the one mind.
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    43 min
  • Teacher is the Learner ACIM

    Teacher is the Learner ACIM
    Feb 14 2026

    Teacher is the Learner ACIM
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    47 min
  • The Let Go Game - ACIM

    The Let Go Game - ACIM
    Feb 11 2026
    Personal Flow and Attachment Soo Kim expressed a feeling of being on the "verge of something". Jevon Perra commented that Soo Kim was doing great with "not attaching to any outcome and just flowing non-judgmentally," which Jevon Perra admitted they struggle with, though they are aware of their attachments. They agreed that the unawareness of one's "craziness" is what causes trouble.Judgment and Sincerity Jevon Perra stated that they constantly have judgments, including about people who are "happy nice," like their Mormon friends, where they don't perceive sincerity. Soo Kim related to the judgment of insincerity, citing it as a major reason for a "rupture with Leila," because they judged her actions as insincere and fake. Jevon Perra agreed that having the data to be "right about my perceptions" is not the ultimate goal because their perceptions and best-case scenarios do not lead to ultimate happiness or peace.Contentment as the Highest State Jevon Perra asserted that the pursuit of achievement and accomplishment does not bring unending happiness and bliss, noting that past moments of having everything only brought momentary satisfaction. They suggested that the "other game" is to simply be content, which they considered "probably the highest state," because if one is content, their apparent energetic state does not matter as much.Illusion of the Singular Self and Happiness Set Point Soo Kim discussed the "illusion of the singular self," stating that even within a personality construct, there are multiple aspects, and the matter is which one one attaches to. Jevon Perra referenced a psychology book, The How of Happy, which suggests that most of one's happiness is set by genetics and other propensities, but about 30% comes from choices made, specifically one's speech and thoughts.The Meaning of Seriousness When asked where they fall on the happiness scale, Jevon Perra described Soo Kim as a "princess warrior type," serious about what is real and true, which Jevon Perra relates to. Jevon Perra defined being serious as meaning "life and death," explaining that to be serious is to stop playing, believe something will kill you, and stop being loose, unguarded, and oneself. They also related seriousness to suffering, where one stops "trusting God" and takes matters into their own hands, leading to suffering.The Enneagram Type Three Racket Jevon Perra shared that as an Enneagram Type Three, they are a performer who struggles to know what is truly them, losing themselves in their performances because they prioritize achievement. They explained that a "racket" is a game played to hide the "real business," drawing an analogy to a butcher shop fronting an alcohol operation during prohibition. Jevon Perra stated that their current "racket" involves engaging in human suffering to be relatable to others, but they get lost in the pain of the character they are playing.Connection versus Attachment Soo Kim questioned the sincerity of relating to people without "getting sucked in," calling it a form of insincerity and faking. Jevon Perra made a distinction between trying to relate and trying to connect, emphasizing that needing to connect is also an attachment. Jevon Perra described extreme attachment as the "needy" individual whose outward show of love is experienced as taking, not giving, because they are trying to "vampire" or suck life from the other.The Origin of Sincerity Discussing sincerity, Jevon Perra provided the etymology of the word, explaining that it is Latin for "without wax," originating from the practice of repairing broken marble statues with wax and dust. To be sincere means not hiding brokenness or what one does not want others to see; it means being transparent. Jevon Perra contrasted this with insincere interactions, such as someone being overly nice, suggesting that something is being hidden.The Progression of Relationships and Sincerity Jevon Perra discussed that normal human interactions are permission-based, with gradual sharing of more personal or "sketchy" information. They noted that always presenting only the cordial side is insincere, and relationships must progress, or the lack of progression signals an issue. If cracks are not shown willingly, Jevon Perra cautioned that they will be revealed through pressure or conflict, which is hurtful.Childhood Dynamics and Emotional Triggers Soo Kim related Jevon Perra's observations about insincerity to their own experience of being triggered and wanting to tell others how they were not hearing them, which mirrors a childhood dynamic where they learned defense mechanisms like taking things seriously to feel safe. Soo Kim felt their mother needed them to behave a certain way to feel like a "good mom," leading to a dynamic where they felt unable to be themself.The Attachment to Outcomes Jevon Perra shared their current personal lesson, which is the triggering belief that they "have to take care of people," specifically their family. This belief ...
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    44 min
  • the HOW of Healing - ACIM

    the HOW of Healing - ACIM
    Feb 6 2026
    Manual for Teachers in A Course in Miracles. "How is healing accomplished?"Meeting Topic Selection With only kristen and Jevon Perra present at the start of the discussion, they decided to read from the Manual for Teachers in A Course in Miracles. They chose the topic "How is healing accomplished?" after considering other options like "trust". Soo Kim joined the meeting later.The Perceived Purpose of Sickness Jevon Perra introduced the reading on healing, stating that healing requires understanding the illusion of sickness and its perceived purpose. The text suggests that sickness has value to the sufferer, acting as an election and a choice of weakness in the mistaken belief that it provides strength. Jevon Perra explained that sickness confirms the body's reality and the ego's separation ideas, which is considered valuable because the loss of this separate identity feels worse than death, like annihilation.Ego, Separation, and Fear Jevon Perra discussed how the ego values things that confirm the physical world and individual separation as real, using sickness as a confirmation. The focus on the physical world and material needs, such as rent and income, creates fear and anxiety. kristen agreed that fear and anxiety can induce sickness, mentioning their realization that they had been severely stressed out, and reflecting on the difficulty of living in the present rather than worrying about the future.Separation from God and Suffering The reading suggested that sickness symbolizes the "defeat of God's son" and the son's attempt to usurp the Creator's throne, driven by the belief that God is fierce and powerful. Jevon Perra interpreted this within a non-dual perspective, where being a separate entity requires "taking" life from the infinite wholeness of God, which is why separation and sickness are cherished by the ego for survival. This separateness inevitably leads to suffering because of the perception of lack.Personal Struggles with Expectations and Presence kristen related the discussion of separation to their own life, noting the stress of striving for a "perfect marriage" or being a "perfect mom". kristen shared that they often stress about financial future, such as paying rent in six months, instead of being thankful and present with their children. Jevon Perra responded by discussing the idea of watching oneself as a character with a script, suggesting that acceptance of the character's flaws and fears, like feeling worthless without accomplishment, is key to realizing one is not the character but the consciousness enlivening it.The Nature of Drama and Desire Jevon Perra argued that life needs drama, comparing the human experience to an entertaining but challenging show like Yellowstone, which kristen enjoys but does not wish to live. kristen questioned whether thinking about an outcome makes it real. Jevon Perra explained that perception determines reality, which can change in an instant, giving the example of two people having completely different experiences at the same party due to different perceptions.Healing and the Mind's Decision The discussion shifted to the conditions under which healing occurs, stating that it happens when the value placed on sickness is recognized and dismissed. The text emphasized that decisions are made by the mind, not the body, and sickness is a decision or a "faulty problem-solving approach". Jevon Perra elaborated that accepting sickness as a decision of the mind is the basis of healing, noting that the patient's mind, not the personality, is the true physician.Contentment and Non-Attachment to Outcome Jevon Perra posited that people pursue accomplishments (health, wealth, love) in search of happiness and contentment, but the activity of pursuing actually maintains separation from it, as it implies a lack. Contentment comes from releasing the idea of lack. kristen agreed, sharing their relaxed approach to changing careers, prioritizing peace over anxiety. Jevon Perra suggested striving to do things without attachment to the outcome, which makes life a fun game, referencing a non-competitive game they play with their wife.Instincts, Cells, and the One Mind Soo Kim raised a question about instincts and reflexes, which they thought were separate from the mind, as they relate to the body's intelligence. Jevon Perra clarified that, according to non-dual teaching, the source of the universe is the "one mind". They illustrated the concept of the whole organism over the individual part by explaining programmed cell death (apoptosis), comparing cancer to a cell that rejects its duty to die for the sake of the whole, choosing to preserve its own identity instead.Ego and Forgiveness Jevon Perra discussed how the ego can label things as necessary for survival, but none of it is ultimately true. They identified cues for letting go of something as any feeling that is the opposite of love, abundance, or contentment, such as defensiveness, protection, or a feeling of needing...
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    48 min
  • REST IN GOD (when things feel f#@k'd). ACIM Lesson 109.

    REST IN GOD (when things feel f#@k'd). ACIM Lesson 109.
    Jan 31 2026
    Morning Gathering and Spiritual Reading Denise Darlene joined Jevon Perra and later Soo Kim for a morning session. Denise Darlene shared a reading from the deck about being "sustained by the love of God," which she said was chosen randomly. Jevon Perra expressed that the concept of being sustained by God's love was helpful, especially in the context of personal "freaking out about sustenance" due to considering quitting a job to start a new venture (00:00:38).Conflict of Thought Systems Jevon Perra described two conflicting internal conversations: one promoting "massive activity" out of fear of financial doom and the other, which is more aligned with Denise Darlene's teachings, emphasizing sustenance from God's love and the release of attachments to accomplishments. Denise Darlene confirmed that the fearful voice, which Jevon Perra feels is only focused on activity as hope, is the "ego voice," and awareness of this voice is 80% of the work in overcoming such struggles (00:02:01) (00:04:36).Ego and the Fear of Failure Denise Darlene explained that the ego is afraid of failure because it understands its limitations, recounting a personal anecdote from a coaching session where she was told, "Oh, you don't" matter when expressing a fear of not mattering if she did not produce something (00:04:36). She stressed that trying to matter or achieve, driven by ego beliefs, will never work, which Jevon Perra confirmed based on personal "data" that shows they are financially secure yet still driven by the "accomplishment muscle" (00:05:48). Jevon Perra noted that this activity acts as a distraction from the stillness, which feels like "dying" to the ego mechanism (00:07:06).Discipline and Spiritual Perspective Denise Darlene advised Jevon Perra to practice discipline by being still and letting the fearful ego thoughts arise and pass without attaching to them, which she suggests is essential for discovering deeper issues (00:08:35). She stated that Jevon Perra's perspective is flawed by focusing on an amount of money rather than acknowledging oneness with God, reinforcing the spiritual perspective that God is the sole source of supply. Denise Darlene referenced Christian mystic Joel Goldsmith's teaching, which redirects focus from physical senses to spiritual reality, similar to the principle in A Course in Miracles that things do not have the meaning placed upon them by the observer (00:09:41).Oneness with God and Non-Doing Denise Darlene emphasized that the spiritual filter of "oneness with God" means "all that God is and all that God has is already present," and Jesus taught to "seek ye first the kingdom of heaven within," implying taking no thought for material needs. Jevon Perra likened their addiction to accomplishment to an addiction to food, where they continue the activity they know instigates suffering while attempting to release the attachment to it (00:12:24). Denise Darlene clarified that one is "inspired to do things" but is "not the doer," suggesting the distinction lies in the motivator: ego-driven action for external validation versus altruistic action as an act of love with no attachment (00:13:48).Grace and Allowing the Ego to Collapse Denise Darlene framed personal success around "grace," stating that one should not take credit for successes or failures because "God is doing everything" (00:16:53) (00:20:39). Jevon Perra agreed that the feeling of doing, even making a mistake, is often the ego jumping in after the fact (00:22:03). Denise Darlene encouraged Jevon Perra to allow the full "collapse" and "death" of the ego structure, which is necessary for freedom, noting that it can happen in a "holy instant" or through struggle, but requires a "tiny bit of willingness" (00:23:40).The Question of Willingness Soo Kim expressed difficulty in differentiating between ego-driven effort and genuine spiritual surrender, questioning if their willingness to see things differently might be a form of "spiritual bypassing". Denise Darlene stated that the question of genuine willingness can only be answered by the individual and challenged the participants on whether they are willing to let their "entire ego structure die," addressing the ego's powerful fear of physical death associated with this surrender (00:25:02) (00:27:55). Soo Kim admitted an unwillingness to allow themselves or their families to be homeless, while Denise Darlene countered by citing the examples of influential devotees who took vows of poverty, emphasizing that true faith requires the willingness to "let it all go" (00:30:47) (00:33:22).Attachment and Spiritual Practice Jevon Perra shared a story about attachment to an impossible past relationship ruining a current one, relating it to their own internal attachment to accomplishment for "fulfillment, peace, contentment" despite knowing intellectually that these are not achieved through accomplishment (00:33:22) (00:36:01). Denise Darlene read Lesson 109 from A Course in Miracles ("I rest in...
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    1 h et 5 min
  • #ACIM. Manual for Teachers. 3. Levels of Teaching

    #ACIM. Manual for Teachers. 3. Levels of Teaching
    Jan 9 2026

    #ACIM. Manual for Teachers. 3. Levels of Teaching
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    39 min