My Ayahuasca Experience – Part Two: Night One With Grandmother

There’s a moment before every first ceremony when fear tightens, identity resists, and truth begins to breathe. Night One starts long before the cup touches your lips, on the plane, in the tension between who you’ve been and who you’re afraid to become. By the time the sun drops behind the Andes and your name is called in the maloca, you realize there is no turning back.

In this episode, I take you into that moment… the doorway between the known and the unraveling.

Grandmother met me instantly, no warm welcome, no gentle reunion. My confidence was my mistake, and she humbled me with a cosmic slap that dragged me into the gravity of the real work. What followed was a war in space that was really a war inside myself: fear of loss, fear of failure, fear of collapse, fear of not being able to protect the people I love.

And just when the darkness felt overwhelming, support arrived in the form of white light, my wife’s essence, reminding me that even in the deepest battles, I’m not alone.

Then came the purge… the clearing… the release. And what unfolded next were two funerals.
One for the fear that my daughter needed saving.
One for the fear that money could crumble my life at any moment.

Grandmother melted my illusions, literally, and showed me the quiet truth beneath survival:
Humans are here to love. Everything else is noise.

Night One left me humbled, emptied, and changed. I wasn’t done healing… but something irreversible had shifted.

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• The Sati Experience: A retreat designed for the married couple that truly loves one another, yet wants to take their love to that higher magical level. Relax, reestablish, and renew your love at the Sati Experience. https://www.satiexperience.com0:00 - Intro1:20 - Part Two - The Deep Breath Before the Plunge

  4:36 - Night One - First Ceremony

  5:14 - The Dose - The amount you drink?

  6:45 - How long does it take to kick in

  7:09 - The night I met the one foot tall shaman guide.

  10:29 - What’s it like?

  12:43 - Grandmother

  16:13 - The Offer of Darkness? What should you do?

  18:15 - The Battle Ship War

  20:21 - My Intentions - The Fears I was ready to shed.

  23:56 - I am not in control

  24:52 - The Purge

  27:57 - The Next Realm - Waterworld - The First Funeral

  31:13 - The Next Realm - The Financial District - The Second Funeral

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Episode 1 of 4 Part Series — Dying to Know: My Ayahuasca Experience Into the Sacred Valley of Peru

This opening episode marks the true beginning of a five-part, raw, unfiltered account of my time working with plant medicine in the Sacred Valley of Peru at the Arkana Spiritual Center. Before any medicine was poured, before the visions or revelations, there was the quiet ache. The inner calling. The fear beneath the fear. The deep, restless sense that something in life still feels unfinished.

Most people don’t seek out Ayahuasca or Sapo because everything is perfect. They come because something inside them is dying to know, Who am I really? What is this life for? Did I miss something essential while trying to keep it all together? The paradox is that what we’re dying to know is not “out there” somewhere in a jungle or temple. It’s here, buried beneath layers of identity, protection, trauma, and roles that no longer serve us.

Plant medicine doesn’t teach you new information; it excavates. It dismantles the inner tyrant who insists life must be predictable and safe. It burns off outdated versions of the self so a truer knowing can rise. Ego death isn’t your death; it’s the death of everything blocking your access to truth.

But the real challenge isn’t the ceremony, it’s integration. You can’t pour awakened clarity back into the shape of an old life. Integration is about becoming the version of you that the medicine revealed and staying awake in a world designed to pull you back to sleep.

This is why I came back to Peru, not for novelty or visions, but for the soul's quality control. To shed another layer, to die another small death, to remember something ancient living inside me. Something I had forgotten.

This is the moment before the beginning.
Where running stops.
Where remembering starts.
Where the real journey begins.

For more information on the Arkana Spiritual Center: www.arkanainternational.com

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3:43 - Dying To Know

5:17 - The Paradox of Plant Medicine

6:59 - Ego Death

7:52 - Integration - What comes after the experience?

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It’s no secret and plain to see what the true cause of disease and most of all the problems we face today comes from Emotional Mismanagement. Our inability to control the only thing we actually have control over. Our response to the inconvenient obstacle course of challenges life throws at us..

Today, we’re talking about one of the most critical skills in emotional self-mastery: protecting your peace by recognizing the people who quietly drain it. These people and their patterns show up so subtly that we often don’t notice our energy leaking until we’re already exhausted, frustrated, and combative. In essence, we all work hard to maintain consistency and reach the flow state where things start going our way. These people seemingly show up with the intention of stealing that flow.

Therefore, I call them Flow Burglars, and I’ve identified five predictable archetypes, each of which disrupts your flow in its own way.

During today’s playtime, we are going to learn how to recognize, disarm, and outsmart them BEFORE they drain your energy and burglarize your flow.

Here are the 5 Archetypes:

1. Comfort Clinger, who uses your support to avoid growth
2. Ungrateful Goblin, who absorbs your kindness without a hint of appreciation
3. Validation Vampire, who appears to want guidance but really wants your agreement
4. Narrative Ninja, who manipulates through emotional storytelling
5. Hard-Headed Hurricane, who chooses chaos again and again and invites you into it.

Discernment protects your peace because it keeps you from stepping into roles you were never meant to play.

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0:00 - Intro

3:42 - The Flow Burglar

6:05 - My first encounter with a Flow Burglar

15:15 - What are they looking for?

18:02 - Repeat Offenders: Advanced forms of Flow Burglars

21:36 - The Final Truth

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