In this episode, I explore how philosopher Eugene Thacker’s ideas about pessimism, horror, and “the world-without-us” unexpectedly illuminate the heart of existential therapy. Thacker argues that moments of dread, uncertainty, and limit-experience reveal the limits of human control and understanding—and these moments show up in the therapy room all the time.

I talk about how existential therapy helps us sit with the mystery instead of running from it, and how confronting the unthinkable can actually open the door to clarity, growth, and deeper self-understanding. From anxiety and identity shifts to grief, burnout, and meaning crises, we look at how therapy becomes a place to face life’s vastness without collapsing into fear.

If you’re curious about the intersection of philosophy, horror, and the therapeutic journey—especially with teens, neurodivergent clients, and adults navigating major transitions—this episode offers a grounded, accessible reflection on how we can live meaningfully in an uncertain world.

In this episode, I sit down with my friend and returning guest, Luke Grote, to explore one of the most intense, provocative, and fascinating chapters I’ve ever read. Luke recently sent me a chapter from his upcoming book — a piece he describes as the best work he’s ever written — and after reading it, I have to agree. It’s part theology, part philosophy, part psychoanalysis, and part prophetic critique, woven together with a raw emotional charge that grabbed me immediately.

We talk about where inspiration really comes from, why the ego is fundamentally a distortion, and how most of us spend our lives sleepwalking inside an identity shaped by cultural conditioning, spiritual misunderstandings, and mimetic pressures. Luke explains why Kierkegaard is his model for doing theology, how despair is a universal condition, and why he believes the “self” we identify with is largely an illusion we need to transcend.

We also explore the intensity — even the fury — in his writing. I ask him directly if this chapter was a kind of “manic rant,” and we dig into how his bipolar diagnosis shapes the way he sees the world, breaks from academic conformity, and refuses to internalize the “Name-of-the-Father” in the Lacanian sense. Luke talks openly about how this partial break from the symbolic order allows him to see through cultural structures most of us unconsciously obey.

From there, we dive into the inseparable relationship between the personal and the political, the tension between detachment and engagement, and why Luke believes genuine social transformation requires a radical remaking of the self. We challenge evangelical moralism, progressive identity politics, and the idolatry of belief within Christianity — and ask what it means to wake up in a world where most people prefer to remain asleep.

This conversation is dense, challenging, and deeply alive. If you’re interested in ego-transcendence, the New Being, Kierkegaard, consciousness, spirituality, political critique, or what it means to become who you truly are, this episode will have a lot for you.

In this solo episode, I dive into Peter Wessel Zapffe’s haunting “existential elk” theory of consciousness — the idea that our self-awareness is both magnificent and unbearably heavy, like oversized antlers we were never built to carry. The topic resurfaced after my friend Aaron Inkrott recently shared the metaphor with me, and it immediately brought me back to when I first encountered it years ago in Thomas Ligotti’s The Conspiracy Against the Human Race.

As a psychotherapist who spends my days sitting with people’s despair, loneliness, and deep existential pain, I find myself drawn to these darker currents of thought. But I’m equally interested in how we can work creatively and hopefully within them. In this episode, I reflect on how Zapffe’s theory shows up in therapy — especially with teens and neurodivergent young adults — and how the metaphor of “the elk with oversized antlers” can help us understand both the burden and the possibility of consciousness.

I invite you to explore your own antlers, the weight you carry, and the ways therapy can help us hold our awareness with more courage, imagination, and maybe even meaning.