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  • Healing Hearts: Navigating Grief, Coping with Loss, and Finding Peace
    Sep 10 2025
    Author Adrienne Bender—photo credit https://adriennebender.com/In the latest episode of the John Passadino show, I interviewed Adrienne Bender, author of “The Almost Miracle Years” which chronicles her journey as a mother and caregiver to her two children and other family members. Her book is not simply a memoir — it’s a testament to her perseverance, transformation, and her pursuit of healing.Adrienne’s journey to motherhood began as a teen, a challenging position to be in. Yet, she completed schooling to become a psychiatric nurse. That position would anchor her when slammed with unthinkable challenges that would befall her and her family.At the heart of Adrienne’s story are her two children, each beset by a disease that would haunt their youth. Doctors diagnosed her daughter Mackenzie with leukemia when she was just eight years old. She would undergo aggressive surgeries and treatments, causing her horrendous pain and suffering to the point nurses tending to her were driven to tears. Meanwhile, her older stepbrother, Kyler, grappled with substance abuse and addiction in the shadows, with Adrienne torn between providing care for both.Adrienne spoke about the trauma of seeing her children suffer while she stood on the balance beam of motherhood. She described her longing prayers, which resulted in small but temporary normalcy such as her daughter’s five-year remission, and her son’s periods of sobriety. However, those incidents were steps on the ladder of a one step up and two steps down life story.Despite near miraculous recoveries her daughter’s disease returned, and in 2018, Mackenzie agreed to end the desperate attempts to save her life. The book documents fifteen-year-old Mackenzie’s heart-wrenching statement to family, saying it was time to end the fight.… it doesn’t seem like I’m going to make it back from this one. I don’t want my life to be filled with test tubes and hospital visits… I have made a decision that when it comes to that time, I will live to the fullest I can, cross off everything on my bucket list, and die happily…Then in 2023, Adrienne’s son Kyler, trying so hard to get his life together, passed away from injuries and fentanyl poisoning.Those losses and her journey to healing herself and others defined Adrienne’s life forever.We talked about her crushing grief — not just for the death of her core family members including her father, inexplicably from the same disease as Mackenzie, and grandfather from Dementia — but for disappointing partners, one of whom was a husband who left while she dealt with her children’s illnesses.Adrienne and I talked about a quote from her which I had messaged to my grieving nephew just before our interview. She said, “…grief and healing aren’t a straightforward course, it’s a maze, and it’s important for people to know that it’s ok to fumble through it.” She also said grief “feels like you’re drowning in an ocean that doesn’t even have a shore.”That is a small sample of the wisdom Adrienne earned and shared.Adrienne’s path to healing included her own struggles with depression and anxiety, including the use of alcohol to numb her pain. Despite those struggles, she found the strength to document not just her innermost feelings, but those of her mom, via her mom’s journals, who provided support every step of the way.Adrienne’s words, both in print in her book and via our conversation, relayed to me a view of her resilience and strength that enabled her to experience her grief while surviving. Her story is more than a common tragedy of an insidious disease; it is an analysis of the human spirit.Through her writing and her quest to educate others, Adrienne encourages others to speak openly about grief and loss, to resist the status quo of hiding it, and to allow themselves to mourn.While Adrienne would never call herself “healed,” she has found a sense of peace. She spoke movingly about the ways her children’s memories fill her days with meaning and described moments in which she feels their presence. She said, “I feel like they’re not dead. They’re just not here. I just can’t see them.” She also said, “…they’re stronger on the other side than they are here. I fully believe that.”Those statements are a testament to her faith and afterlife.Adrienne Bender’s journey — as a young mother, a nurse, an author, and a survivor — offers invaluable lessons for anyone grappling with loss, grief, or the complexities of life. Her book, “The Almost Miracle Years,” is a tribute not only to her children but to the human spirit.Our podcast conversation was more than an interview; it was an immersion into the depths of grief and resilience. Adrienne’s story challenges us to face our own suffering, to appreciate moments of grace, and to remember that, after the darkest storms, rainbows follow.If you or someone you know is struggling with loss, and we all are to ...
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    1 h et 4 min
  • Lessons from a Writer's Journey Through the Blogosphere
    Aug 20 2025
    Blogger is a term used for a writer who writes articles and posts them online for an audience to read. The word “log” as in a captain’s ship log, forms the core of the word. I first “blogged” on a Google-owned site called Blogger in the early 2000s. The white screen with a blinking cursor would beckon me to spill my soul, and I tapped away after a long day at work. The page welcomed me. It didn’t talk back. It just listened.However, I worked an IT job by day, and ninety percent of my eye and mind-numbing work involved me facing the screen and typing until my fingers literally hurt. I stopped blogging to gain my equilibrium.After I left Blogger, blogging became a fixture in the gig economy, with many writers making a living from it. Mainstream media outlets paid attention to what leading writers said. Some drew hundreds of thousands of followers.When I left my full-time job in 2021, I set out to write what I wanted. However, using my retraining money from my layoff package, I attended Writers Digest University, where I learned the art of novel and short story writing, so my focus became fiction writing. The instructors could be brutally honest, as were fellow students when we interacted. It bruised my ego, but I learned story structure, grammar and usage.However, long-form writing felt like an insurmountable mountain. I wanted a quicker path to publication. It was then that I discovered Zulie Rane on YouTube. Her unbound enthusiasm for a blog site called Medium was infectious. She said it was a great place to write and earn. Her face shone, and her articulate voice beckoned me. I thought back to Blogger and all the writing I did. I had discovered the missing link. My personal non-fiction stories!In 2023, I wrote my first articles on Medium. Months went by, and I saw little reaction. I had three followers and no readers. I stopped trying and went back to fiction and published a short story book instead.A turning point came in 2024 when I received an invitation from Medium to attend an online seminar. My eyes widened as I realized all I had missed. I learned I could apply to write for publications where editing teams under the leadership of publishers like Susan Brearley and Kiki Walter would review my writing and give me the feedback I missed. Once again, I learned my writing required refinement, and I learned that following a process, could lift my words to a higher level.In parallel, I signed up for courses with a company called Write, Build, and Scale that showed me an in-depth view of Medium from every angle. Their lighthearted, professional and detailed approach raised my writing to even greater heights. Zulie appeared again, acting as a consultant to the creators of the course.My writing centers on memoir, humor and self-improvement, and I have achieved success at it. In one year, my follower count increased dramatically, with people who are not friends and family and not “follow for follow” users showing interest. Also, curators on Medium boosted my articles so they would get more reads, which translated to more earnings.My article views and earnings skyrocketed. I encouraged other writers to join Medium. “Join Medium where you can earn instantly.” A statement like that is music to a writer’s ears.However, in 2025 my reads and earnings dropped despite my working hard on each article. Unfortunately, a shift had occurred as Medium adjusted to the proliferation of “gig economy” listicle articles, AI-generated material, and spammers imitating writers. They entered an era of quality control to ensure genuine writers wrote genuine stories. I believe the expression “baby thrown out with the dirty bathwater” applied because although I enjoyed a boost here or there, overall, I lost the attention of readers.My next adventure brought me to Substack, where the business model centers on earning money from a newsletter. I joined Write Build Scale to learn the ropes. The course, just like the Medium course, is well planned and detailed, but I didn’t gain traction.Between my experience on Medium and Substack, I wondered if I belonged in the blogosphere at all.Then I viewed an article that compared Substack to Medium by Zulie. Remembering her expert advice as YouTuber and consultant, I invited her to my podcast to talk about her history as a blogger, AI and its impact, changes at Medium and how I can find a target audience.As I suspected, her effervescent personality and charismatic voice burst through the screen.Like me, she started out slow as a blogger. She needed to learn the ins and outs of what made an article successful. Not only did she do that, but she built a business to teach others how to.Last I looked, she had 175,000 followers on Medium on her personal blog page. Lately, she has transitioned to a new page in her life and career as a Medium employee who guides readers and writers on how to navigate and appreciate the site.Zulie was forthcoming with me when I asked what ...
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    1 h et 15 min
  • A Mental Health Revolution: Finding Peace in the Present
    Aug 13 2025

    Host John Passadino welcomes guest Promise, a former Buddhist monk turned meditation and wellness coach. The conversation explores Promise’s unique journey from monastic life to modern mindfulness practice, highlighting how his spiritual background informs his current work in mental health and personal growth.

    Driving force:

    Promise’s mental health challenges, experience as a Buddhist monk and how it shaped his worldview.

    Cultural contrasts:

    John reflects on growing up in a Christian environment and how encountering Promise’s story offers a fresh perspective.

    Mental health insights:

    The discussion emphasizes the importance of mindfulness, emotional awareness, and holistic wellness in today’s fast-paced world.

    Practical advice:

    Promise shares accessible techniques for managing stress and cultivating inner peace, especially for those unfamiliar with meditation.

    Here are some compelling quotes from the show:

    Promise:

    “Monastic life taught me that silence isn’t empty—it’s full of answers.”

    “Meditation isn’t about escaping reality. It’s about meeting yourself in it.”

    “Mental health isn’t just about fixing what’s broken—it’s about nurturing what’s whole.”

    Conclusion: My enlightening discussion with Promise yielded a view I never saw before in mental health. He dealt with his issues holistically and grew a fresh and practical perspective. Also, he carefully documented his system with the goal of sharing it to help others.

    What’s so refreshing about him is his willingness to share much of his Mental Health Revolution material for free.

    You can find Promise’s Mental Health Revolution material here.

    The audio version of the interview can be heard in its entirity via the John Passadino show here on Substack or on the following platforms:

    Spotify, Apple Podcasts, Amazon Music, and Audible.

    The video version is located on YouTube

    All content is copyright and all rights reserved by Passadino Publishing LLC



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    1 h et 14 min
  • Echoes of a Sacred Rebel
    Jul 30 2025
    I interviewed The Sacred Rebel, also known as Claire, for my latest podcast episode on my show, the John Passadino Show, which is now heard on Spotify, Apple Podcasts, Amazon Music, Audible, Substack and YouTube (video version). I made some interesting discoveries on new age philosophy and its practice.You can find the complete interview broadcast on the John Passadino show on Spotify, Apple Podcasts, Amazon Music, Audible, Substack, and YouTube (video version).Below, I summarize my interview.Claire is a multidimensional energy healer who has been in touch with her past lives. She told me she went through a spiritual awakening, which happened over a series of shifts over time culminating in a profound awakening in 2015.What does spiritual awakening mean?In Psychology Today magazine, Doctor Steve Taylor described it as “…a profound shift in consciousness and perception, leading to a deeper understanding of oneself and the universe.” The Bible Hub website says, “A spiritual awakening typically involves a profound recognition of the divine and a renewed awareness of truth.”To further illustrate, biblical scripture documents many awakenings, such as when the apostles of Jesus received the Holy Spirit during a day referred to as Pentecost. They saw tongues of fire and spoke in other languages. Reception of that spirit enabled them to heal others.Although there have been incidents of Christians’ ability to heal people since those ancient times, it’s rare to speak to someone who claims to have those capabilities, so I was grateful for the opportunity.Her abilities include energy healing, mediumship, and psychic intuition. She uses these abilities in her mentoring, support and guidance of spiritual seekers.Unlike the apostles, her awakening didn’t come on a particular day. She said, “I have experienced cycles of transformation—mini awakenings, deaths, and rebirths, each bringing new layers of wisdom.”Along the way, she uncovered what she calls “hidden wisdom,” and she “rediscovered the keys to her innate self,” which means triggering “dormant DNA,” within her, a DNA “waiting for the green light of consciousness….”“DNA, or deoxyribonucleic acid, is the hereditary material in humans and almost all other organisms.” I cannot explain how DNA manifests energy. You can read detailed explanations on the Sacred Rebel’s website, blogs and eBooks, but according to her, there’s potential for all of us to activate that dormant DNA.I thought to myself, do I want to attempt it? What are the ramifications? How much work will it take, and will I learn things I would regret? Do I really want to know who I was in a past life like Claire says she does?However, those are traditional fear thoughts. We discussed how there are always factions of people who would automatically resist when something different presents itself to them. I countered with examples of incidents of my divine experience. Claire listened intently and supported my views. I found her very easy to talk to.Her descriptions comforted me too. She said awakening, “…is similar to learning to walk for the first time as a child,” and that as humans develop, new generations will find it easier to access the information and energy within us. I found that statement most intriguing because Claire said the developed race of humans would contribute to the elimination of the darkness that’s befallen our world.I see parallels in the promises of a better tomorrow that various religions promise. The method of arriving at that point is different, but I believe the vision is the same. I mentioned that I believed Jesus was enlightened and that 2000 years ago, he could access any dimension. Claire did not disagree. However, we steered clear of analysis of religions because our conversation was not about who was wrong or right. It was about her personal transformation.I liked her profound statement: “I’ve come to understand that spirituality isn’t about transcending reality—it’s about grounding divine wisdom into everyday life.”Her words led me to determine that her approach to spiritual growth is practical because she’s not promising we will immediately float above our bodies or walk through walls but that we can, over time, access a fourth and fifth dimension from our current existence. She said there, “…is no timeline for awakening—only the unfolding of consciousness at its own divine pace.”In closing, the study of new age concepts encompasses past lives, multiple dimensions, energy, chakras and more. My conversation with Claire showed once again that people can take part in civil discourse regardless of different belief systems and that there is hope for humanity.I hope you will find the interview as interesting and enlightening as I did. You can find it broadcast on the John Passadino show on Spotify, Apple Podcasts, Amazon Music, Audible, Substack, and YouTube (video version).Note once again that ...
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    1 h et 4 min
  • Discovering Healing in a Complex World
    Jul 16 2025

    Cleo says we all have angels and we all can connect to them which can help us to heal and build our faith. Her spiritual transformation came twenty years ago during a bout with chronic fatigue syndrome, during which her meditations established her spiritual transformation.

    Her journey through that condition and other health conditions opened her up to what I call the divine. Today she’s able to tap into the spirit world, and angels speak to her and through her. Her YouTube videos show angels, such as the angel Santi, speaking through Cleo’s body.

    I found Cleo to be a fascinating person. Her knowledge of spiritual issues is all self-taught. She didn’t earn a PhD in psychology. Instead, she earned a PhD from the school of hard knocks, life experience and self-healing.

    I can’t say specifically how Cleo helped others because she protected the confidentiality of her clients, but the angel channeler zeroed in on my issues and experiences and immediately jumped into an intuitive analysis and positive affirmations. Her goal is to help people find confidence, joy and deep wisdom by guiding them to find it themselves. I immediately felt uplifted.

    Cleo offers classes to help people find answers and unlock their abilities by channeling with their own spirit guides in their own way and on their own time.

    I understand some may be skeptical. We live in a world of charlatans who often prey on the grief of others to make money. However, I felt Cleo possessed a high level of conviction and integrity. I can tell by her words, and her bright energy glow, she lives and practices what she preaches.

    In this often-frightening world in which people continually harm each other emotionally and physically, it was a pleasure to meet someone who specializes in the opposite, and that is healing them.

    I hope you will find this podcast interview as fascinating as I found it. You can find Cleo Dunsmore Buchanan on Facebook, LinkedIn, Medium, and YouTube.



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    1 h et 16 min
  • Bridging Worlds: A Podcast About Connection Despite Differences
    Jun 18 2025

    My macro level view of the world leaves me with the impression it's on fire most days. Political turmoil in the US, and wars dot the globe. I look at the media, including social media, and see searing division.

    My faith in humanity wanes often, and I wonder if our cultural and political differences are beyond repair. Friends and family routinely bicker then ghost each other over policies they have little control over.

    I wondered if I could bridge the gap between myself and someone whose life and situation are very different from mine. Would I regret starting a conversation? Would we spiral into emotional unrest? I needed an answer.

    For my show, I chose a writer whose articles I read previously. Her writing style, although passionate, appeared non-confrontational. However, I’m a Christian older adult living in the United States, and the writer, a female young Muslim adult from Eastern Europe.

    Although we had snippets of interaction before the show, an hour-long conversation might result in tensions.

    In this episode, recorded on the 13th of June 2025, we discussed questions about politics, life, and the human experience using Zəhra’s articles as our guide. I wondered how our faiths and cultures would influence our views of the world. Would those influences cause us to agree or disagree on many topics?

    Spoiler alert:

    We realized despite our differences; we landed on the same overarching page and that is empathy and concern for humanity.

    We didn’t aim to score points to win a debate or convince one another of our righteousness, a pattern we’ve seen so often in so many.

    Instead, we approached each topic with open minds, although we based our views on the study of issues, not just subjective opinion. You’ll hear analysis from both of our lives with a common thread of respect.

    I’m hoping this podcast will provide an example of how to engage in a conversation with someone whose outlook may appear to be drastically different from yours. At a time when division is easy and even encouraged by social media, our dialogue stands as a small but meaningful example of how understanding can be achieved.

    So, please give my show with guest Zəhra Üzeyirli a listen. I know you will see how our shared humanity can shine through the many differences that make us unique.

    Zəhra means "brilliance, light, and radiance.” Her articles exude those traits, as does her persona. It was my privilege to speak with her. Please check out her articles in her newsletter on Substack.



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    56 min
  • The Healing Power of Art: Triumphing Over Adversity
    May 28 2025

    In this episode, I conduct an interview with a courageous woman who confronts her illness through creativity, her families support, and her faith in God.



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    1 h et 19 min
  • Hello Sunshine—A Caregiver's Unexpected Journey of Love and Loss
    May 21 2025

    Amy Nicole Tangel is a journalist, author, playwright, and founder of The Human Interest Story. In 2017, she published the children’s book, Buster Backpack Adventure and in 2020, she released the memoir, Hello Sunshine A Caregiver’s Unexpected Journey of Love and Loss. Most recently Amy authored a new children’s book, An Apple a Day.

    In this episode, John discusses with Amy her journey as a caregiver and the profound discoveries encountered along the way. She reflects on overcoming spirit-numbing grief and discovering light amidst the darkness.

    One of Amy’s many charitable events is coming up on June 28th, 2025 in the NY area. Take a look to support this event and orgranization.



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    58 min