Down the Rabbit Hole
Curious Adventures and Cautionary Tales of a Former Playboy Bunny
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Holly Madison
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The shocking, never-before-told story of the bizarre world inside the legendary Playboy Mansion - and finally the secret truth about the man who holds the key - from one of the few people who truly knows: Hef's former number-one girlfriend and star of The Girls Next Door.
A spontaneous decision at age 21 transformed small-town Oregon girl Holly Sue Cullen into Holly Madison, Hugh Hefner's number-one girlfriend. But like Alice's journey into Wonderland, after Holly plunged down the rabbit hole, what seemed like a fairy tale life inside the Playboy Mansion - including A-list celebrity parties and her own number-one-rated television show for four years - quickly devolved into an oppressive routine of strict rules, manipulation, and battles with ambitious, backstabbing bunnies. Life inside the notorious mansion wasn't a dream at all - and quickly became her nightmare. After losing her identity, her sense of self-worth, and her hope for the future, Holly found herself sitting alone in a bathtub, contemplating suicide.
But instead of ending her life, Holly chose to take charge of it.
In this shockingly candid and surprisingly moving memoir, this thoughtful and introspective woman opens up about life inside the mansion, the drugs, the sex, the abuse, the infamous parties, and her real behind-the-scenes life with Bridget, Kendra, and, of course, Mr. Playboy himself.
With great courage Holly shares the details of her subsequent troubled relationship, landing her own successful television series, and the hard work of healing, including her turn on Dancing with the Stars. A cautionary tale and a celebration of personal empowerment, Down the Rabbit Hole reminds us of the importance of fighting for our dreams - and finding the life we deserve.
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- Dee
- 2022-10-25
Audio quality isn’t great
The audio quality isn’t great it’s kind of pixelated which makes it only really listenable on 1.5x speed
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- Chantel
- 2022-04-13
way more substance than assumed
the book was great. it flowed very well and kt was interesting. I wish there were a little.more gossipy moments but it was all done in good taste I feel. only issue with Holly narrating is her use of wh-. her wh in what why or any words that start with wh is very pronounced and takes the focus away from the sentence for a second, it was a little distracting for me. however still amazing!
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- Anonymous User
- 2021-06-04
worth the listen
The novel repeted its self a few times. Would explain something, then in th next chapter reword it to explain the same thing
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- Carol
- 2021-05-27
Great story
Holly was easy to listen to . Loved her experiences
It’s a matter of fact story . Love Holly !
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- Anna Gallos
- 2023-02-17
Charming audiobook
I truly was impressed on the inner strength that Holly had and finally was able to show it. So proud of this women.
I really enjoyed Hollys narrative of the book. As I listen to her tell her story I was walking in her footsteps along the way in my wild imagination. At times I forgot I was listening to an audiobook and not a show playing vividly in my mind.
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- Chantale Rivet
- 2018-09-13
Guilty pleasure
If gossip is your guilty pleasure, this book will sure fill that void. Holly really shares a lot about her time with Hef and makes you feel like you were right there with her #Audible1
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- Km
- 2019-09-11
Eye opening
I really enjoyed finding out more about Holly and her time in Hugh Hefner house.
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- Stephanie
- 2021-04-06
Love!!
I finished this in a couple days and enjoyed it so much. She did a great job telling her story! ❤️
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- Amazon Customer
- 2022-06-17
soo good
what an insightful. look into hollys life, im a huge fan of the girls next door, so this was such an insiders look at what it was really like.
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- Anonymous User
- 2020-11-26
Great Insight
I really enjoyed this book. It was great to see the inside view of this world and how she was actually treated.
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