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God, If You're Not up There, I'm F*cked

Tales of Stand-up, Saturday Night Live, and Other Mind-Altering Mayhem

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God, If You're Not up There, I'm F*cked

Written by: Darrell Hammond
Narrated by: Darrell Hammond
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Tina Fey’s Bossypants meets David Carr’s The Night of the Gun in Darrell Hammond's groundbreaking memoir, God, If You’re Not up There, I’m F*cked - a raw look inside the troubled life and mind of an American comic genius.

By turns poignant and hilarious, Hammond takes listeners from the set of Saturday Night Live, where he was the show’s longest tenured cast member, to the drug-ridden streets of Harlem and into the twisting corridors of his own unflaggingly humorous consciousness. Mingling behind-the-scenes stories from television’s best loved comedy series with a dark look inside a world-class funnyman, God, If You’re Not up There, I’m F*cked is a book sure to resonate with anyone who shares a talent for performance, a love of comedy, or a desire to know how an artist can climb from the deepest despair to the very top of his profession.

To hear Hammond tell stories from the book, live from New York’s Comedy Cellar, check out That’s Clinton!, also available on Audible.

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"I'm heralding the high watermarks of my life but the flip side is there are some pretty low watermarks, too," the SNL alum says of his confessional memoir.
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Extremely funny but dark and heartbreaking. I had to watch his documentary after listening. Truly a sweet & brave soul.

An Amazing Listen

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It is certainly not all laughs (although there are many), but I found myself drawn in to his life's story and all his struggles and the lessons he eventually learned from it all. It's raw, a bit dark, and totally engaging.

I really enjoyed this book: raw, personal & funny

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this book is going to help alot of people who are carrying around past trauma. I know it has helped me. I never would have thought that the man I grew up laughing to on SNL had such a serious side. I recommend this book to everyone.

raw, honest and heartbreaking

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Mr. Hammond's book is amazing, and his performance incredible. I recommend this to anyone. I loved it.

Amazing

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I found this book to be a tough listen in many places. I thought I was going to get a lot of backstage at SNL information, and while there is a good amount of that, Darrell's life is the major component, and he has lived through a lot of things that you wouldn't wish on anyone.

The book is full of impressions and performances which are wonderful to listen to, but when you hear the rest of the reading, it's hard to believe it's the same person. Darrell sounds disinterested and more monotone; he almost mumbles his way through. Whether that's just the way he talks or he was trying to keep a distance from the traumatic events, I did find that in a few places, I had trouble figuring out what he was saying or mustering up the enthusiasm to continue my listening.

The audiobook itself is definitely worth a listen, and I also enjoyed the extra material at the end: a lengthy excerpt from a live stand-up performance and an interview with Darrell himself after he recorded the audiobook.

Interesting, Challenging, Funny, but a Bit Uneven

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