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  • In My Own Moccasins

  • A Memoir of Resilience
  • Written by: Helen Knott
  • Narrated by: Helen Knott
  • Length: 8 hrs and 48 mins
  • 4.9 out of 5 stars (81 ratings)

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In My Own Moccasins

Written by: Helen Knott
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Helen Knott, a highly accomplished Indigenous woman, seems to have it all. But in her memoir, she offers a different perspective. In My Own Moccasins is an unflinching account of addiction, intergenerational trauma, and the wounds brought on by sexual violence. It is also the story of sisterhood, the power of ceremony, the love of family, and the possibility of redemption.

With gripping moments of withdrawal, times of spiritual awareness, and historical insights going back to the signing of Treaty 8 by her great-great grandfather, Chief Bigfoot, her journey exposes the legacy of colonialism, while reclaiming her spirit.

©2019 Helen Knott (P)2021 Knopf Canada

What the critics say

2020, RBC Taylor Prize, Long-listed

2020, Saskatchewan Book Award for Non-Fiction, Winner

“An incredible debut that documents how trauma and addiction can be turned into healing and love. I am in awe of Helen Knott and her courage. I am a fan for life. Wow.” (Richard Van Camp, author of The Lesser Blessed)

“Heartfelt, heartbreaking, triumphant and raw, In My Own Moccasins is a must-read for anyone who's ever felt lost in their life… Actually, it's a must-read for anyone who appreciates stories of struggle, redemption and healing. Knott’s writing is confident, clear, powerful and inspiring.” (Jowita Bydlowska, author of Guy: A Novel and Drunk Mom)

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Heart-wretchingly Honest

An excellent look at a Helen's struggles and resilience. Some aspects of the book are hard to hear, but the author speaks from personal experiences of her struggles with addiction, sexual abuse, and ultimately overcoming and speaking her truth to find healing. This provides an excellent look into understanding one indigenous women's struggles and some of the problems that are prevalent in Canada. I recommend this book, especially if seeking to have further understanding in steps to reconciliation.

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Incredibly raw, Absolutely beautiful.

This book made me feel all the feels. Its bravery will give you goosebumps. it's a must-read that will stay with me for a long long time.

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Wow. This was a tough, tough read.

It was an emotional rollercoaster and rightly so, as it deals with very tough subjects. Do not read this if you are easily triggered. Helen demonstrated incredible strength sharing everything she did in this book and to call it powerful is an understatement. The story is not as much about her life as a first nations citizen, as it is about her struggles with abuse, addiction and recovery. That is to say that while the environment she grew up in most definitely lead to the trauma she faced as well as her healing, and I in no way want to diminish that, the story at its core is about trauma and healing as a woman, which should resonate with everyone, regardless of whether or not they are a first nations resident. The fact that she is a first nations woman simply adds more layers of complexity and uniqueness to the underlying experience. If you're going to read this, be prepared for it to be emotionally difficult to ingest.

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Thank you Helen!!!!

So sad to hear what Helen Knott went through, but, at the same time, it is wonderful news to see how she made it through and recovered her life back!!
Absolutely perfect narration too!!

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I didn't feel so alone after listening to this. It was a gift from my brother 🪶

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Sacred truth of Resilience

A hearts wide open view of living the truth of abuse and addiction. Definitely worth reading and I honour Helen for bringing this compelling story to light. May be hard for those who have been through similar journeys yet she shows the way from the ashes to others travelling the black road to a new way on the red road! Women warriors speak

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Powerful, incredibly brave and educational

Wow. What a brave woman. Such a powerful memoir of a never-give-up indigenous woman and her family’s dogged triumph over the myriad of issues and problems she faced in her healing journey. Her story gave me a better understanding of colonialism and the impact it has had on generations of indigenous people. Heartbreaking, illuminating, but hopeful.

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Inspiring!!!

An amazing, inspiring, life affirming account of triumph over debilitating hardship and addiction. Decolonize your mind! Read this book.

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Brave Warrior Woman

This is my second time listening to this compelling life account of Helen Knott. I’m grateful for your honesty. I’m so sorry that this was your life. Your story will reach someone who’s grasping at life. Thank you, thank you, thank you. O’Siem

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Thank you

Thank you to Helen for sharing her and her families story with the world. you truly are a worrier, a survivor, a fighter. blessings to you.

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