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Adam Gold
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Written by:
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Nicky James
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Twenty-eight-year-old Oryn Patterson isn't like other people. Being an extremely shy social introvert is only part of the problem. Oryn has dissociative identity disorder. He may look like a normal man on the outside, but spend five minutes with him, and his daily struggles begin to show.
Oryn shares his life and headspace with five distinctively different alters. Reed, a protective, very straight jock. Cohen, a flamboyantly gay 19-year-old who is a social butterfly. Cove, a self-destructive terror, whose past haunts him. Theo, an asexual man of little emotion, whose focus is on maintaining order. And Rain, a five-year-old child whose only concern is Batman.
Vaughn Sinclair is stuck in a rut. When his job doesn't offer the same thrill it once did, he decides it's time to mix-up his stagnant, boring routine. Little does he know, the man he meets during an impromptu decision to return to college is anything but ordinary.
Vaughn's heart defies logic, and he finds himself falling in love with this strange new man. But how can you love someone who isn't always themself? It may not be easy, but Vaughn is determined to try.
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Beautiful story!
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Beautiful ❤❤❤❤
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The story itself is one of the best I've ever read. Oryn Patterson has dissociative identity disorder. Up until this point the only stories I've seen featuring DID have used it strictly for shock value. Nicky James however, does not do that. She discusses Oryn's disorder with sensitivity and compassion. I really appreciate that though she touches on the fact that his disorder stemmed from abuse, she does not go into detail about the abuse itself or focus on it in any way. Instead Oryn, his five alters, and Vaughn are the focus. As they should be. To be quite honest, I'm not sure I ever want to read something detailing the kind of abuse it would take to trigger DID in someone. I did however, really enjoy Oryn's story.
You can tell Nicky James went to great lengths to research the disorder before she began. Vaughn is absolutely amazing. We all need a Vaughn in our lives.
Absolutely beautiful
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The detailed research that the author did for this book. Thank you Nicky James ♥️
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Highly recommended
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