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“Moving, heartfelt, and truly inspiring. A great book to read right now.” (Cheryl Strayed, author of Wild and Tiny Beautiful Things

"Ruthie is a gifted storyteller with the unique ability to make you feel her emotions as if they're your own. Her book is somehow both bold and tender and utterly, truthfully, authentically her. She doesn't hide from heartbreak or fail to experience the fullness of all the beauty life can hold." (Rachel Hollis, number one New York Times best-selling author of Girl, Wash Your Face and Girl, Stop Apologizing)

Brain on Fire meets Carry On, Warrior, There I Am is an arresting inspirational memoir about one woman’s journey from chronic pain and hopelessness to finding joy, redemption, and healing.

At 17 years old, Ruthie Lindsey is hit by an ambulance near her home in rural Louisiana. She's given a five percent chance of survival and one percent chance of walking again. One month later after a spinal fusion surgery, Ruthie defies the odds, leaving the hospital on her own two feet.

Just a few years later, newly married and living in Nashville, Ruthie begins to experience debilitating pain. Her case confounds doctors and after numerous rounds of testing, imaging, and treatment, they prescribe narcotic painkillers - lots of them. Ruthie has become bedridden, dependent on painkillers, and hopeless, when an X-ray reveals that the wire used to fuse her spine is piercing her brain stem. Without another staggeringly expensive experimental surgery, she could well become paralyzed, but in many ways, she already is.

Ruthie goes into the hospital in chronic pain, dependent on prescription painkillers, and leaves that way. She can still walk, but has no idea where she's going. As her life unravels, Ruthie returns home to Louisiana and sets out on a journey to learn joy again. She trades fentanyl for sunsets and morphine for wildflowers, weaning herself off of the drugs and beginning the process of healing - of coming home to her body.

Raw and redemptive, There I Am is not just about the magic of optimism, but the work of it. Ruthie's extraordinary memoir urges us to unlearn the stories of brokenness that we tell ourselves and embrace the wholeness, joy, and healing that lives inside all of us.

©2020 Ruthie Lindsey (P)2020 Simon & Schuster Audio

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Amazing, honest and heartfelt.

I have listened to it because Ruthie's voice and storytelling is beyond amazing. I have the hardcover copy and have now read that twice. I gain new in sight every time I read or listen to it. Thank you so much for sharing your story and trusting us with it.

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  • Kurt Gunnels
  • 2020-04-24

Ruthie, wow. Thank you.

I’ve listened to over 200 book. My favorites are ones read by the author. You, my friend, are ranked in a level just above number 1. Truly, a great book. This book. Your performance. This family. Wow. I’m from St. Francisville, graduated the same year as Tim from WFHS, and only knew hints of your story. What an incredible life you’ve had. A lot of sadness and a lot of joy. I’m very proud of you and hope to see you soon around town. Kurt

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  • Ellen
  • 2020-04-29

There I Am Review.

So many emotions were felt as I walked my way through this book. I was so happy for Ruthie I could cry and then I almost didn’t want to hear another word as the pain was too bearable to be a part of. Having Ruthie read me HER story was necessary. It wouldn’t have worked for anyone else to tell it. Excellent! I have learned through listening to Ruthie and through living my own life a truth ... pain, joy, grief, beauty can all exist together. It just depends on the minute or the day which speaks the loudest and which we give the most attention to. Thank you, Ruthie for allowing us into your story.

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  • Rebekah
  • 2020-04-22

Inspirational and moving

Ruthie is such a gifted story teller. Her story is so moving and inspirational! She has a way of making you feel as though your own personal journey relates to her harrowing unbelievable one. This book is so beautiful.

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  • 2020-12-20

Beautiful

Wow. What a wonderful example of a heartfelt journey of finding yourself. Or. As she said. You are already there. There I am.

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  • Kristine
  • 2020-12-12

Lessons in life through Audio Book...

This book gave me a lot of insight on marriage , love and life in general. Ruthie is a talented and warm hearted soul this universe needs!

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  • 2020-11-13

Will remain in my mind

Beautiful. Listen to it when you are in need of some love in your life.

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  • Tracey
  • 2020-10-10

Loved this book!

What an amazing story. Lindsey tells her story with such grace. I didn’t want it to end!

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  • Sara J Waddle
  • 2020-10-01

Compelling and thoughtful

I enjoyed this story because it’s so opposite of my life. It brought compelling thoughts and I felt so much empathy for Ruthie. She’s a descriptive story teller. The plot wasn’t quite what I guessed— but in the end it was neutral. I wish her well on her continuing journey through life.

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  • Liz
  • 2020-09-26

MUST LISTEN!

An incredible, vulnerable life story that can make anyone who’s experienced anything hard in life, feel as if they are NOT ALONE. It is so warm. You’ll finish wanting 100 more stories like it.

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  • Tomasina18
  • 2020-08-10

LIFE CHANGER

Ruthie’s Memoir is a gift to anyone who reads it. I loved listening to her tell her own story and was completely moved by her “sushi grade” honesty. We all live with some form of pain, but very few are willing to set it out on the table ... let alone invite others to gather around to see it.