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  • Unbearable Lightness

  • A Story of Loss and Gain
  • Written by: Portia de Rossi
  • Narrated by: Portia de Rossi
  • Length: 9 hrs and 18 mins
  • 4.5 out of 5 stars (39 ratings)

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Unbearable Lightness

Written by: Portia de Rossi
Narrated by: Portia de Rossi
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Publisher's Summary

“I didn’t decide to become anorexic. It snuck up on me disguised as a healthy diet, a professional attitude. Being as thin as possible was a way to make the job of being an actress easier . . .”

Portia de Rossi weighed only 82 pounds when she collapsed on the set of the Hollywood film in which she was playing her first leading role. This should have been the culmination of all her years of hard work - first as a child model in Australia, then as a cast member of one of the hottest shows on American television. On the outside she was thin and blond, glamorous and successful. On the inside, she was literally dying.

In this searing, unflinchingly honest book, Portia de Rossi captures the complex emotional truth of what it is like when food, weight, and body image take priority over every other human impulse or action. She recounts the elaborate rituals around eating that came to dominate hours of every day, from keeping her daily calorie intake below 300 to eating precisely measured amounts of food out of specific bowls and only with certain utensils. When this wasn’t enough, she resorted to purging and compulsive physical exercise, driving her body and spirit to the breaking point.

Even as she rose to fame as a cast member of the hit television shows Ally McBeal and Arrested Development, Portia alternately starved herself and binged, all the while terrified that the truth of her sexuality would be exposed in the tabloids. She reveals the heartache and fear that accompany a life lived in the closet, a sense of isolation that was only magnified by her unrelenting desire to be ever thinner. With the storytelling skills of a great novelist and the eye for detail of a poet, Portia makes transparent as never before the behaviors and emotions of someone living with an eating disorder.

From her lowest point, Portia began the painful climb back to a life of health and honesty, falling in love with and eventually marrying Ellen DeGeneres, and emerging as an outspoken and articulate advocate for gay rights and women’s health issues.

In this remarkable and beautifully written work, Portia shines a bright light on a dark subject. A crucial book for all those who might sometimes feel at war with themselves or their bodies, Unbearable Lightness is a story that inspires hope and nourishes the spirit.

©2010 Simon & Schuster Audio; 2010 Portia de Rossi

What the critics say

“Breathtakingly honest, brutal and beautiful.” (Jonathan Safran Foer)
“Possibly the best book on the subject ever written. De Rossi is the real deal, a fine writer with a sharp mind and substance. This rich, layered book of remarkable courage, power, and significance will serve as life-changing inspiration for many.” (Augusten Burroughs)
“De Rossi tells her story with genuine insight and unflinching honesty. You will cheer her on.” —Jeannette Walls

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  • 2024-02-04

Heartbreaking but insightful

It is sad that such a beautiful person had to go through all of this. I am grateful that she has recovered and is able to share her story with us. I truly appreciate it that she took the time to read it to us herself, telling us her own story as it is meant to be heard.

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I didn’t want this book to end.

The book was raw, honest and heartbreaking but what I wasn’t expecting was that Portia is such a great storyteller.

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Eye opening!

What an honest account of life behind the glamour of glossy pages, bright flashing lights, and the in-crowd!

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Heart breaking and honest

The story is so relatable. I appreciate her honesty. It kept me enthralled until the end.

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It’s painful to read, but very telling.

I only took one star off because recovery is more difficult when you don’t have the money or connections.

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