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  • Remembering the Things I Drank to Forget
  • Auteur(s): Sarah Hepola
  • Narrateur(s): Sarah Hepola
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  • 4,6 out of 5 stars (124 évaluations)

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Blackout

Auteur(s): Sarah Hepola
Narrateur(s): Sarah Hepola
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A memoir of unblinking honesty and poignant, laugh-out-loud humor, Blackout is the story of a woman stumbling into a new kind of adventure - the sober life she never wanted.

For Sarah Hepola, alcohol was "the gasoline of all adventure". She spent her evenings at cocktail parties and dark bars where she proudly stayed till last call. Drinking felt like freedom, part of her birthright as a strong, enlightened 21st-century woman. But there was a price. She often blacked out, waking up with a blank space where four hours should be. Mornings became detective work on her own life. What did I say last night? How did I meet that guy? She apologized for things she couldn't remember doing, as though she were cleaning up after an evil twin. Publicly, she covered her shame with self-deprecating jokes, and her career flourished, but as the blackouts accumulated, she could no longer avoid a sinking truth. The fuel she thought she needed was draining her spirit instead.

Shining a light into her blackouts, she discovers the person she buried, as well as the confidence, intimacy, and creativity she once believed came only from a bottle. Her tale will resonate with anyone who has been forced to reinvent or struggled in the face of necessary change. It's about giving up the thing you cherish most - but getting yourself back in return.

©2015 Sarah Hepola (P)2015 Hachette Audio

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yes! finally! something relatable

Maybe it's a tmi, but I felt this book deeply. Almost autobiographical. I'm so happy to have selected the audible version. Gripping, funny, engaging and heartbreaking. Enough to make a moderate drinker sober-curious.

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Not my favourite memoir

I read a LOT of 'quit lit' and memoirs on the subject of addiction/overcoming ones addiction. This one was difficult to finish. In fact I have not yet, and am not sure I will. Loved "quit like a women', 'drinking, a love story' and 'girl walks out of a bar'. If you are new to this genre, I suggest you start with one of these!

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Exceptional

Sarah has candid and clever writing style. I loved every minute of it! Thanks Sarah for sharing your story.

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Powerful

A powerful, emotional story of a woman’s alcoholism and finding sobriety. A great read for support or if you know someone who may be going through something similar.

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Couldn't put it down!

Thank you for writing such a heartfelt and honest book about your struggles with alcohol. Your words have given me hope and strength.

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Great book

Sarah's story reminds me so much of my own story. The memory loses, the struggles, and finding a way out in the end.

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authentic, honest, and raw

Sarah's recollection of her journey leading up to sobriety is powerful. I cried and struggled and laughed and just.... felt with her along the way. Excellent narration as well.

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a good recovery book

as someone who has struggled with addiction to alcohol, I found this to be an interesting listen and a helpful reminder of the daily struggle of this affliction. the content was sometimes difficult to listen to in a powerful, impactful sort of way, but it was told in a very open and honest way that I appreciate.

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Great memoir, superb narration

Superb narration by the author adds another dimension to this memoir. You don't have to relate to the story to appreciate this book. At least you don't have to think that you might relate to appreciate it.

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I could relate

I could relate to so much in this book. It helped me look at aspects of my drinking in a whole new light. If you are ready and open to this topic, I highly recommend this book.

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  • W Perry Hall
  • 2015-07-17

Blackout: A Knockout

"What really knocks me out is a book that, when you're all done reading it, you wish the author that wrote it was a terrific friend of yours and you could call [her] up on the phone whenever you felt like it. That doesn't happen much, though." J.D. Salinger

I ran across this quote accidentally yesterday and thought of this book, which I've been holding off reviewing because it moved me so much that I felt like I couldn't do it justice. I think, though, that Salinger's quote is the highest compliment one can give an author of a memoir.

Through raw honesty and her wonderful way with words, Sarah Hepola has perfectly, poignantly and humorously captured the true essence of the hole in the soul I've seen in so many addicts/alcoholics. I was prepared to quote numerous passages from her book about "Martini math," and switching bodegas so no one of the guys would catch on to purchasing patterns, and her experiences with strangers when she was drunk (and could remember), but I think one best paints the picture for anyone considering buying this book, of her moment of finally "quitting":

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" [t]he need to hold onto booze was primal. Drinking had saved me. When I was a child trapped in loneliness, it gave me escape. When I was a teenager trapped by self-consciousness, it gave me power. When I was a young woman unsure of her work, it gave me courage. When I was lost, it gave me the path -- that way, towards the next drink and everywhere it leads you. When I triumphed, it celebrated with me. When I cried, it comforted me. And, even in the end, when I was tortured by all it had done to me, it gave me oblivion."
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Ms. Hepola finds sobriety at first, day by day and tough for maintaining optimism. Yet, she now sees that sobriety in her life's story is "not the boring part, it's the plot twist."

The audio version was particularly compelling because of Ms. Hepola's soft, though at times lively, voice and her gut-wrenching archival tape recording of herself at 13 discussing drinking and her experience with an 18-year-old boy, a statutory rape.

I hated to finish this book because it felt like a friend telling me her whole life story, sharing and stirring in me such raw emotions, and then ... I couldn't talk back.

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  • Jonna Stout
  • 2015-07-13

Starting Over

I was sober for 13 months and went back out. I started an IOP today and picked up my desire chip at lunch. I started the book yesterday and could not stop listening. I went in to group today with a clear purpose and full of hope. Thank you Sarah for your honesty. It reminded me yet again that we are not alone.

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  • Phoenix Glass-Destruge
  • 2017-09-13

If You're a Big Book Thumper

you'll probably love this book. It's basically a book-length Alcoholics Anonymous speaker meeting. Hepola is a journalist and an intelligent, thoughtful one at that, therefore, a decent writer, but her delivery is a bit wistful and precious. The first half of the book is your classic drunk-a-logue with a decent amount of introspection. The second half of the book feels like a long advertisement for A.A., slogans and all. It's as if Hepola lost her true self to the group identity of "the program". She stops using her own language to describe her experience and instead starts using the platitudes that hang on the walls of a 12-step hall, such as, "Let Go and Let God". If you're high on the recovery cloud, this book will undoubtedly resonate with you, but if you've progressed beyond A.A., it'll begin to sound regurgitated, as if you're sitting in a meeting that drags on and on.

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  • Kara Hawker
  • 2015-08-04

Story of my Life

Alcohol has always fueled my social interactions. In the past few years my drinking has become worse and my blackouts more frequent. Sarah expressed how it feels to not know when to make an exit. I'm glad she wrote about her journey and it makes me excited to start one of my own.

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  • Robert F.
  • 2015-12-10

Sarah : A Love Story, Not a Drinking Story

Would you consider the audio edition of Blackout to be better than the print version?

Yes--its like watching a movie in my head esp late at night like 3:00 AM in the morning. Sarah's living voice esp brings out the sneaky, sneaky way alcohol takes over one's life.

What other book might you compare Blackout to and why?

The Lost Weekend by Charles Jackson. But it's like comparing apples and oranges since one is fiction but both are good. Jackson, whose long winded narrative style is too, too long--even preachy, and Sarah Hepola's writing: short and (if you can read between the lines) sweet and bitter.

Which character – as performed by Sarah Hepola – was your favorite?

Sarah with her, remorseless comments about her drinking self, steals every scene. She must choose either the exciting, brilliant in full cinematic color, writer who writes better when inebriated and does horribly, shockingly, embarrassing things when drunk and then completely forgets them . . . or everyday, daily Sarah Hepola-- in the mirror, ordinary Sarah Hepola. Which Sarah do you love?

Was this a book you wanted to listen to all in one sitting?

I savored each scene like a a meal so rich you can't eat it all at once. I'm waiting a reasonable interval maybe a year, so I can read it again.

Any additional comments?

Yes, one scene, early on in the book, where her boyfriend looks at her nude in the bathtub (after a heavy night of drinking for both) and finds her fat and unattractive made me gasp for her pain and the terrible loneliness of imagined love--and it is love story, not a drinking story.

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  • Max
  • 2015-09-06

Not bad

Not as funny or interesting as I had hoped based on reviews, bit it was genuine and somewhat insightful. Not a great listen, but not a bad one either.

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  • Dee
  • 2015-07-17

Awesome!!!

This was a great story! I enjoyed it. Funny, emotional!
I never write a review, as I should, because I do love a lot of books.
BUT this one was THAT great I chose to share!

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  • 2015-06-29

Great memoir

"Blackout" is an intimate portrait of alcoholism that explores the nuances of female addiction in our culture of "empowerment." This is the most relatable description I've read of the vulnerability and stubbornness of alcoholism and of the hope and struggle of sobriety.

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  • Scott Fowler
  • 2015-06-29

Story that grips you and won't let go.

As a guy that has hone through the hell of addiction, the slamming into my rock bottom, and the slow journey to the sober man I am today, this story told from a female perspective is absolutely gripping. I could not stop listening even through parts that reminded me of my own dungeons. This is one of the best and most inspiring audiobooks I have ever heard, and every word is true.

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  • Janet
  • 2015-07-06

Really quite impressive

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I purchased this audiobook with pretty low expectations. It seems that every month, there's another book released by a recovering alcoholic. But this one is actually entertaining, mostly because Hepola has a great sense of humor. While the book starts to drag toward the end once she attains sobriety (again, rather inevitable--when you've quit drinking, you have no more drinking stories, and all that's left is to philosophize about life for three chapters), I'd still recommend this one.

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