What happens when you realize the voice you’ve been following isn’t actually yours. This episode is a love letter to that realization.

We talk about why so many of us think our intuition is broken, when really, we’ve just been listening to everyone else’s opinions, timelines, and “shoulds” for way too long. I share how easy it is to confuse anxiety with intuition, and how the ego can sound urgent, loud, and convincing … while the soul is quieter, slower, and doesn’t need to explain itself.

I also go into the difference between fear-based guidance and true inner knowing, why intuition doesn’t shout, and how constant self-correction can disconnect us from our own internal compass.

This isn’t an episode about fixing yourself or learning a new technique. It’s about remembering. About softening. About noticing where you stopped trusting yourself, and why that actually makes so much sense.

If you’ve been questioning your instincts, outsourcing your decisions, or feeling disconnected from your own yes and no… this one is for you.

Programs and Resources

1. NOCTURNE: 21-days of Shadow Work → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/nocturne
2. FREE Future Self Meditation → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/future-self-meditation
3. Free Guide: Slay Your Shame to Be Magnetic AF → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/slay-shame-be-magnetic-b
4. The Descent: A Guided Journey to Reclaim Lost Magic → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/the-descent-journey

Keep the Magic Rolling:

1. Follow me on Instagram → https://instagram.com/lovelightandblackholes
2. My website → https://lovelightandblackholes.com
3. Read my book Soul Magic: Ancient Wisdom for Modern Mystics → https://morgangarza.com/soul-magic-ancient-wisdom-for-modern-mystics/

About Our Sponsors:

1. Download the Saged App https://sagedapp.com/applink/store
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Disclaimer:

This podcast is for education and inspiration only. If you’re struggling with mental health or medical conditions, please seek professional support.

The is a Maeluna Media Production

Okay let’s talk about being delulu

Because right now the internet is fully romanticizing the idea that if you just decide something is true, it’ll magically work out. And listen, sometimes that mindset is actually powerful as hell.

And sometimes?

It’s just avoidance in a cute outfit.

In this episode, I’m breaking down when “the delulu is the solulu” and when it quietly turns into spiritual bypassing, nervous system freeze, or straight-up lying to yourself.

I get into:

1. Why acting “as if” can genuinely change your life
2. The psychology behind why confidence before evidence actually works
3. The moment delusion stops being playful and starts being harmful
4. How manifestation turns toxic when it disconnects you from reality
5. The difference between faith and avoidance (and how to tell which one you’re in)
6. What conscious delusion actually looks like — belief that moves you forward, not keeps you stuck

If you’ve ever wondered whether you’re trusting the universe… or just not wanting to deal with something uncomfortable, this episode will hit.

Programs and Resources

1. NOCTURNE: 21-days of Shadow Work → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/nocturne
2. FREE Future Self Meditation → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/future-self-meditation
3. Free Guide: Slay Your Shame to Be Magnetic AF → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/slay-shame-be-magnetic-b
4. The Descent: A Guided Journey to Reclaim Lost Magic → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/the-descent-journey

Keep the Magic Rolling:

1. Follow me on Instagram → https://instagram.com/lovelightandblackholes
2. My website → https://lovelightandblackholes.com
3. Read my book Soul Magic: Ancient Wisdom for Modern Mystics → https://morgangarza.com/soul-magic-ancient-wisdom-for-modern-mystics/

About Our Sponsors:

1. Download the Saged App https://sagedapp.com/applink/store

This episode isn’t cute. It’s honest.

Today I’m talking about the parts of ourselves we don’t want to integrate. The ones we wish never happened. Not the soft, Instagram-friendly shadows like dimming your light. Or even that shadows that focus on what others did to you or your wounded inner child. But the moments where we hurt someone. Where we straight up caused harm and moved on with life, with an over-sized bag of shame.

This is the kind of shadow work almost no one wants to touch. Because it’s not about reclaiming power. It’s about responsibility.

I talk about why it’s easier to face the places where we were wounded than the places where we had agency, and how pretending those parts “aren’t us anymore” doesn’t actually free us, it just buries them.

In this episode I talk about:

• Why unintegrated shadow doesn’t disappear, it leaks

• The difference between accountability and self-shaming

• How cruelty, judgment, avoidance, and superiority often come from distorted protection

• Why integration is not approval and never justification

• What real wholeness actually asks of us

This episode is an invitation to stop trying to be spotless… and start being honest.

Programs and Resources

1. NOCTURNE: 21-days of Shadow Work → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/nocturne
2. FREE Future Self Meditation → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/future-self-meditation
3. Free Guide: Slay Your Shame to Be Magnetic AF → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/slay-shame-be-magnetic-b
4. The Descent: A Guided Journey to Reclaim Lost Magic → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/the-descent-journey

Keep the Magic Rolling:

1. Follow me on Instagram → https://instagram.com/lovelightandblackholes
2. My website → https://lovelightandblackholes.com
3. Read my book Soul Magic: Ancient Wisdom for Modern Mystics → https://morgangarza.com/soul-magic-ancient-wisdom-for-modern-mystics/

About Our Sponsors:

1. Download the Saged App https://sagedapp.com/applink/store
2. Get 10% off your first box or shop purchase with my code: MORGANGARZA https://www.sagedshop.com/

Disclaimer:

This podcast is for education and inspiration only. If you’re struggling with mental health or...