You’re not afraid of your power, like Marianne Williamson said.

You’re afraid of what your power will change, of the identity that will die, of the unfamiliar and unpredictable, and unknown.

Because when you rise, things shift.

Relationships recalibrate.

Identity rearranges.

Old comfort zones dissolve.

Your life gets bigger than the person you’ve been.

And your nervous system LOVES a good predictable mess.

It hates unfamiliar peace, unfamiliar success, unfamiliar ease.

In this episode, I dive into:

• why the ego clings to the familiar even when it sucks
• that WILD Michigan fMRI study where the brain literally panics at the successful future self
• why you sabotage right when something starts working
• why consistency feels terrifying (it's change, not sabotage)
• how identity death is the real shadow of expansion

and the truth nobody wants to admit: success is only scary because it guarantees change.

If you’ve ever wondered why you retreat, retract, procrastinate, or stall right when things start getting better… this episode is your mirror.

You’re not afraid of rising.

You’re afraid of what rising will require.

Programs and Resources

• NOCTURNE: 21-days of Shadow Work → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/nocturne
• FREE Future Self Meditation → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/future-self-meditation
• Free Guide: Slay Your Shame to Be Magnetic AF → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/slay-shame-be-magnetic-b
• The Descent: A Guided Journey to Reclaim Lost Magic → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/the-descent-journey

Keep the Magic Rolling:

• Follow me on Instagram → https://instagram.com/lovelightandblackholes
• My website → https://lovelightandblackholes.com
• Read my book Soul Magic: Ancient Wisdom for Modern Mystics → https://morgangarza.com/soul-magic-ancient-wisdom-for-modern-mystics/

About Our Sponsors:

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Disclaimer:

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If you’re already mentally preparing for the holiday Hunger Games, I recorded this for you.

But before you pack emotional armor for Thanksgiving, let’s talk about something juicy:

Your triggers aren’t meltdowns waiting to happen — they’re portals.

Yep. This week on Love, Light & Black Holes, we’re going right into the spiritual lion’s den:n family, holidays, emotional landmines, and the shadow work hidden in your aunt’s passive-aggressive comments.

In this episode, I’m breaking down why the holidays turn us into emotional werewolves… why your nervous system reacts before your brain even registers what’s happening… and how to move through family triggers without flipping the entire table over the cranberry sauce (tempting, though).

We’re talking:

• Why your body remembers your family before your mind does
• How triggers are actually invitations, not punishments
• The version of you your family resurrects (even when you’ve outgrown her)
• Real-life examples we can all relate to (yes, including “You look tired”)
• How to handle holiday portals like the spiritually evolved badass you are
• And why sometimes the most sacred thing you can do… is hide in the pantry with a cookie

This one is real, raw, and honestly one of the most relatable episodes I’ve ever recorded.

Listen before you walk into the holiday lion’s den. Your shadow will thank you — and your future self will avoid a felony.

Programs and Resources

• NOCTURNE: 21-days of Shadow Work → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/nocturne
• FREE Future Self Meditation → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/future-self-meditation
• Free Guide: Slay Your Shame to Be Magnetic AF → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/slay-shame-be-magnetic-b
• The Descent: A Guided Journey to Reclaim Lost Magic → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/the-descent-journey

Keep the Magic Rolling:

• Follow me on Instagram → https://instagram.com/lovelightandblackholes
• My website → https://lovelightandblackholes.com
• Read my book Soul Magic: Ancient Wisdom for Modern Mystics → https://morgangarza.com/soul-magic-ancient-wisdom-for-modern-mystics/

About Our Sponsors:

• Download the Saged App https://sagedapp.com/applink/store
• Get 10% off your first box or shop purchase with my code: MORGANGARZA https://www.sagedshop.com/

Disclaimer:

This podcast is for education and inspiration only. If you’re struggling with mental health or medical conditions, please seek professional support.

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Stop focusing on trying to to regulate your nervous system. You need to let out the scream you've been holding in the past decade.

We’ve somehow convinced ourselves that being peaceful all the time is the goal — like inner peace is the new personality trait. But what I’ve learned (through life, shadow work, and a few cosmic smackdowns) is this:

sometimes the most spiritual thing you can do is scream into a pillow at full volume.

In today’s episode, we get into the messy truth the wellness world avoids:

• Why “inner peace” can secretly be a trauma response
• Why your body doesn’t want calm — it wants completion
• How sacred rage is actually your path into real peace
• The neuroscience behind anger, suppression, and emotional bottlenecking
• Why softness after rage is stronger than pretending you’re chill
• And why your soul doesn’t want constant regulation… it wants permission

This is the episode where we break up with performative peace and come back into actual aliveness.

Because if you’re never angry … you’re probably not being honest.

Grab your matcha, get cozy, and let me tell you why your rage is medicine — and your peace is stronger because of it.

Programs and Resources

• NOCTURNE: 21-days of Shadow Work → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/nocturne
• FREE Future Self Meditation → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/future-self-meditation
• Free Guide: Slay Your Shame to Be Magnetic AF → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/slay-shame-be-magnetic-b
• The Descent: A Guided Journey to Reclaim Lost Magic → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/the-descent-journey

Keep the Magic Rolling:

• Follow me on Instagram → https://instagram.com/lovelightandblackholes
• My website → https://lovelightandblackholes.com
• Read my book Soul Magic: Ancient Wisdom for Modern Mystics → https://morgangarza.com/soul-magic-ancient-wisdom-for-modern-mystics/

About Our Sponsors:

• Download the Saged App https://sagedapp.com/applink/store
• Get 10% off your first box or shop purchase with my code: MORGANGARZA https://www.sagedshop.com/

Disclaimer:

This podcast is for education and inspiration only. If you’re struggling with mental health or medical conditions, please seek professional support.

The is a Maeluna Media Production https://maelunamedia.com/

You know that feeling when life rips the rug out from under you, and your first instinct is to grab tighter? Yeah, same.

In this episode, I revisit something I wrote a decade ago while living in Granada, Spain, back when uncertainty meant adventure, not anxiety. Back then, I chased the unknown through cobblestone streets and open roads. But after the quantum crumble of the past few years, I’ve learned that uncertainty isn’t something you conquer… it’s something you befriend.

In this episode I talk about:

• Why the ego craves control but the soul craves expansion
• How science proves uncertainty is literally the fabric of reality
• Why softness is the new strength (and surrender is sacred)
• What Hartmut Rosa and Gabor Maté teach us about letting go
• And how to find peace when you have no idea what’s next

If you’ve been fighting to “figure it all out,” this one’s your permission slip to stop gripping and start trusting. Because control is an illusion — but presence is real.

Back then, uncertainty felt like freedom.

Now I know it’s the portal to everything real.

Programs and Resources

• NOCTURNE: 21-days of Shadow Work → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/nocturne
• FREE Future Self Meditation → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/future-self-meditation
• Free Guide: Slay Your Shame to Be Magnetic AF → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/slay-shame-be-magnetic-b
• The Descent: A Guided Journey to Reclaim Lost Magic → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/the-descent-journey

Keep the Magic Rolling:

• Follow me on Instagram → https://instagram.com/lovelightandblackholes
• My website → https://lovelightandblackholes.com
• Read my book Soul Magic: Ancient Wisdom for Modern Mystics → https://morgangarza.com/soul-magic-ancient-wisdom-for-modern-mystics/

About Our Sponsors:

• Download the Saged App https://sagedapp.com/applink/store
• Get 10% off your first box or shop purchase with my code: MORGANGARZA https://www.sagedshop.com/

Disclaimer:

This podcast is for education and inspiration only. If you’re struggling with mental health or medical conditions, please seek professional support.

The is a Maeluna Media Production https://maelunamedia.com/

Yup ... I'm the problem. IT'S ME! But I'm also the solution, and you are too.

Press play on this MICRODOSE that packs a mega dose of wisdom.

Programs and Resources

• NOCTURNE: 21-days of Shadow Work → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/nocturne
• FREE Future Self Meditation → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/future-self-meditation
• Free Guide: Slay Your Shame to Be Magnetic AF → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/slay-shame-be-magnetic-b
• The Descent: A Guided Journey to Reclaim Lost Magic → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/the-descent-journey

Keep the Magic Rolling:

• Follow me on Instagram → https://instagram.com/lovelightandblackholes
• My website → https://lovelightandblackholes.com
• Read my book Soul Magic: Ancient Wisdom for Modern Mystics → https://morgangarza.com/soul-magic-ancient-wisdom-for-modern-mystics/

About Our Sponsors:

• Download the Saged App https://sagedapp.com/applink/store
• Get 10% off your first box or shop purchase with my code: MORGANGARZA https://www.sagedshop.com/

Disclaimer:

This podcast is for education and inspiration only. If you’re struggling with mental health or medical conditions, please seek professional support.

The is a Maeluna Media Production https://maelunamedia.com/

You know that moment when your healing journey starts to feel heavy?

Like you’ve been journaling, meditating, shadow-working your ass off. And somehow still feel stuck? Or even like things are getting worse?

Yeah. That was me. I was compulsively focused on healing, which made me think I was broken. And that ain't it!!!!

In this episode, I share the story of when I realized I’d become addicted to healing. It was right after I lost an IUD inside my body (yep, lost), had surgery for fibroids, and watched them grow right back. Like my body was screaming: “you can’t fix what you won’t feel.”

That was the moment everything changed. I moved from panic to purpose, from control to surrender, from obsessively “working on myself” to actually living as myself.

In this episode I go deep on:

• How healing can quietly become a form of avoidance
• Why your nervous system can literally get addicted to processing
• What it means to stop identifying with the “wounded self”
• How to move from endless shadow work into integration and embodiment
• And the exact moment I realized: I wasn’t healing anymore, I was hiding.

This one’s raw, real, and probably not what you’ve heard before.

It’s not about giving up on healing. It’s about remembering what healing is for.

If you’ve ever wondered why your “inner work” doesn’t feel like it’s working anymore, this episode will change how you see everything.

Programs and Resources

• NOCTURNE: 21-days of Shadow Work → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/nocturne
• FREE Future Self Meditation → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/future-self-meditation
• Free Guide: Slay Your Shame to Be Magnetic AF → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/slay-shame-be-magnetic-b
• The Descent: A Guided Journey to Reclaim Lost Magic → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/the-descent-journey

Keep the Magic Rolling:

• Follow me on Instagram → https://instagram.com/lovelightandblackholes
• My website → https://lovelightandblackholes.com
• Read my book Soul Magic: Ancient Wisdom for Modern Mystics → https://morgangarza.com/soul-magic-ancient-wisdom-for-modern-mystics/

About Our Sponsors:

• Download the Saged App https://sagedapp.com/applink/store
• Get 10% off your first box or shop purchase with my code: MORGANGARZA https://www.sagedshop.com/

Disclaimer:

This podcast is for education and inspiration only. If you’re struggling with mental health or medical conditions, please seek professional support.

The is a Maeluna Media Production https://maelunamedia.com/

You know those random memories that still make you cringe? The ones that sneak up while you’re brushing your teeth and you’re like, “ugh, why did I do that?” Yeah. This episode is about that.

Grab your tea, your oat-milk latte, whatever and let’s talk about what it really means to make peace with all the versions of you that came before.

Because here’s the truth: they were doing their best. The one who stayed too long, the one who settled, the one who self-sabotaged, the one who didn’t know any better… she’s not the enemy. She’s the reason you’re here.

In this week’s Love, Light, & Black Holes microdose, we’re diving into:

• Why rejecting your past keeps you stuck in the same loop
• How accepting your past selves brings your future self in faster
• How to actually forgive yourself without bypassing accountability
• The 3-step process I use to reconnect and integrate those old selves
• A short mirror ritual that’ll leave you soft, grounded, and free

Think of this as the cosmic version of a catch-up with your best friend who loves you enough to tell you the truth: your past doesn’t need to be erased, it wants to be embraced.

Programs and Resources

• NOCTURNE: 21-days of Shadow Work → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/nocturne
• FREE Future Self Meditation → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/future-self-meditation
• Free Guide: Slay Your Shame to Be Magnetic AF → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/slay-shame-be-magnetic-b
• The Descent: A Guided Journey to Reclaim Lost Magic → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/the-descent-journey

Keep the Magic Rolling:

• Follow me on Instagram → https://instagram.com/lovelightandblackholes
• My website → https://lovelightandblackholes.com
• Read my book Soul Magic: Ancient Wisdom for Modern Mystics → https://morgangarza.com/soul-magic-ancient-wisdom-for-modern-mystics/

About Our Sponsors:

• Download the Saged App https://sagedapp.com/applink/store
• Get 10% off your first box or shop purchase with my code: MORGANGARZA https://www.sagedshop.com/

Disclaimer:

This podcast is for education and inspiration only. If you’re struggling with mental health or medical conditions, please seek professional support.

The is a Maeluna Media Production https://maelunamedia.com/

Buckle up, because this one’s a controversial portal!

I just got back from an AI summit that was supposed to be about tech… but every speaker kept talking about the same thing: being more human.

And it hit me. Artificial intelligence isn’t replacing us. It’s revealing us.

In this episode of Love, Light & Black Holes, we’re diving into how AI can become your spiritual thought partner — a tool for subconscious reprogramming, shadow work, and self-discovery that mirrors your inner world back to you.

This isn’t about outsourcing intuition or bypassing your humanness. It’s about learning to use AI as a conscious mirror. To see yourself more clearly, to code new beliefs, and to integrate your mind, body, and spirit through intelligent reflection.

Here’s what we get into:

• How AI helps you talk directly to your subconscious (and why that’s huge)
• Why traditional self-help and talk therapy are evolving — fast
• How to use AI ethically, consciously, and spiritually (without losing your soul)
• The Soul x System Method: a 3-step practice to mirror, recode, and embody your next evolution

This is the future of awakening. Not higher, not holier, but more human.

⭐️ Let me know what you think of this episode! I know it's going to be controversial, but I'm so curious about your thoughts. Email me at magic@lovelightandblackholes.com or DM me on Instagram

Mentioned in this episode:

The AI Surfer: https://theaisurfer.com/

Superconscious by Tom McCarthy: https://www.superconscious.io/

Vision Espresso: https://justgrowvisions.com/

Programs and Resources

• FREE Future Self Meditation → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/future-self-meditation
• Free Guide: Slay Your Shame to Be Magnetic AF → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/slay-shame-be-magnetic-b
• The Descent: A Guided Journey to Reclaim Lost Magic → https://lovelightandblackholes.com/the-descent-journey

Keep the Magic Rolling:

• Follow me on Instagram → https://instagram.com/lovelightandblackholes
• My website → https://lovelightandblackholes.com
• Read my book Soul Magic: Ancient Wisdom for Modern Mystics → https://morgangarza.com/soul-magic-ancient-wisdom-for-modern-mystics/

About Our Sponsors:

• Download the Saged App https://sagedapp.com/applink/store
• Get 10% off your first box or shop purchase with my code: MORGANGARZA https://www.sagedshop.com/

Disclaimer:

This podcast is for education and inspiration only. If you’re struggling with mental health or medical conditions, please seek professional...