In this episode, I'm joined by Alex Beattie, founder of The Divorce Planner, to talk about what actually helps in the earliest stages of separation and divorce. Alex is a divorce prep coach who works with people before they hire attorneys or mediators, helping them get grounded emotionally and prepared practically before big, irreversible decisions are made.

We talk about the grief, shame, and identity disruption that often catches people off guard, even when divorce feels mutual, and why slowing down at the beginning can protect you emotionally and financially in the long run.

Alex's web site: https://www.thedivorceplanner.net/

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Timestamps & topics

00:00 – What a divorce prep coach actually does
How divorce prep differs from legal strategy and why preparation before calling a lawyer matters

02:15 – Why people want to "just get it over with"
Emotional overwhelm, avoidance, and the risks of making decisions from shutdown or panic

03:50 – Divorce as the end of an imagined future
Grief, loss of identity, and facing a blank slate you didn't plan for

06:10 – The emotional pain people underestimate
Why sadness, grief, and shame still show up even when divorce is the "right" decision

08:40 – How childhood patterns resurface during divorce
Why old narratives about worth, safety, and capability come back online

10:20 – Divorce and confidence collapse
Questioning your value, competence, and future, especially for stay-at-home parents

13:05 – Reframing skills, worth, and capability
Recognizing transferable skills and rebuilding self-trust

14:45 – Retraining the brain during a destabilizing life transition
Awareness, emotional regulation, and building stability when everything feels uncertain

17:00 – Social stigma, family reactions, and judgment
Why divorce still carries shame and how others' reactions can complicate healing

19:10 – The most unhelpful things people say during divorce
"Well-meaning" comments that actually increase shame and self-doubt

21:30 – How friends can offer real support
Listening, practical help, and showing up without trying to fix or judge

24:10 – Letting yourself receive support
Why isolation makes divorce harder and how connection actually builds resilience

28:40 – Why you should never negotiate money without knowing your numbers
How fear around finances leads to long-term regret

30:10 – The 5-5-5 decision rule
Evaluating divorce decisions based on their impact over time, not just immediate relief

32:00 – Final advice for early-stage divorce decisions
Why slowing down now protects your future self and prevents costly mistakes later

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Kim's website: https://www.kimpolinder.com/

Kim's Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/kp_counseling/

Kim's YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@engineeringlovepodcast

You understand why you avoid.
You see the pattern.
And you're still doing it.

In this episode, Kim Polinder explores the frustrating gap between self-awareness and actual change — and why insight alone rarely leads to different behavior.

Rather than framing change as a decision or a motivation problem, this conversation breaks down procrastination as a capacity issue. Kim walks through four common "false fixes" people rely on when they're trying to change — strategies that look responsible on the surface but quietly reinforce avoidance.

Using real-life relational examples, nervous system science, and practical reframes, this episode explains why waiting to feel calm, trying to be perfect, forcing yourself through hard moments, or endlessly consuming self-help content often backfires.

The focus is not on fixing yourself, but on building emotional capacity: the ability to stay present with discomfort, repair when things go sideways, and stop turning one hard moment into a verdict about who you are.

Timestamps & Topics

[00:00:00] – The Conundrum: Why self-awareness doesn't change behavior.

[00:01:39] – Defining Capacity: Why change requires extreme discomfort.

[00:02:48] – False Fix #1: Waiting to feel calm or "ready" before acting.

[00:03:59] – False Fix #2: The perfectionism trap and the cost of "doing it right".

[00:06:50] – False Fix #3: Forcing exposure without a support system.

[00:08:45] – Pausing to Avoid vs. Pausing to Build Capacity.

[00:14:09] – False Fix #4: Searching for the "Golden Key" of insight.

[00:16:40] – Short-term relief vs. Long-term training of the nervous system.

[00:19:35] – Why willpower fails under emotional threat.

[00:22:00] – Compassionate Curiosity: How to stop abandoning yourself.

[00:24:37] – Why we lose access to our skills when triggered.

[00:27:13] – The Lab Partner: The necessity of community and repair.

[00:29:14] – Invitation to the Virtual Cohort: Building capacity in real-time.

Kim's website: https://www.kimpolinder.com/

Kim's Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/kp_counseling/

Kim's YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@engineeringlovepodcast

In Episode 10, Kim opens Season Two by breaking down procrastination in a way most people have never heard it explained before.

This episode isn't about productivity, discipline, or time management. It's about emotional risk, fragile self-esteem, and the identities we built in childhood to survive.

Kim explains why procrastination shows up around the things that matter most. Big conversations. Creative work. Boundaries. Healing. Growth. And why avoidance isn't laziness. It's protection.

Drawing from attachment theory, trauma, neurobiology, and her own lived experience, Kim connects procrastination to emotional attunement, identity, shutdown, people-pleasing, catastrophizing, and the fear of inner collapse. She also explains why insight alone doesn't change behavior, and what actually has to shift for real movement to happen.

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Time Stamps & Topics

00:00 – Rage, triggers, and decades of stored emotional memory

00:25 – Why feeling misunderstood cuts so deeply

00:52 – Procrastination isn't about time management

02:29 – Procrastination around hard conversations

03:01 – Mistakes, shame, and fragile self-esteem

05:28 – What self-esteem actually is (and isn't)

06:25 – Emotional attunement explained

07:37 – Why "they'll never understand me" isn't true

08:10 – Childhood emotional neglect and minimization

09:14 – Avoidant coping and jumping to solutions

09:57 – Why being sat with matters

10:27 – Religion, conflict avoidance, and emotional bypassing

11:30 – Biology of trauma and implicit memory

12:33 – Adoption, abandonment, and cognitive bias

13:46 – Anger as a lifelong trigger

14:52 – Suppression vs expression of emotion

15:41 – Coping mechanisms and shutdown

16:24 – Anxious vs avoidant responses in conflict

18:28 – Catastrophizing and control

19:13 – Why anxiety feels protective

23:14 – Childhood roles: good child, peacemaker, achiever

26:25 – Waiting until you're angry to speak

29:12 – Why your partner isn't the whole cause

30:07 – Shutdown as self-protection, not punishment

31:05 – Why insight doesn't change behavior

33:11 – Reframing hard conversations

36:16 – How family freezes you in old identities

37:35 – Why growth feels threatening

38:05 – Holding competing emotions about parents

39:22 – Letting go of old identities

40:05 – Why growth feels risky, not empowering

41:18 – What actually reduces procrastination

42:09 – Questions to ask yourself about avoidance

44:58 – Pay attention to what you avoid

45:26 – What avoidance is protecting
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This episode is especially relevant if you feel stuck despite insight, avoid hard conversations, or keep postponing the things that matter most to you.

Kim's website: https://www.kimpolinder.com/

Kim's Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/kp_counseling/

Kim's YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/@engineeringlovepodcast