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  • Adam's Story
    Nov 18 2025

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    One of the most difficult parts of mental health struggle is feeling alone. Shame, fear, and stigma keep us isolated and reinforce the belief I am the only one who struggles with mental health. When someone shares their struggle with us, suddenly we have hope. Even when pain is present, there is something so healing about being in community. How do we build a community in the middle of our struggle?

    Someone needs to start the conversation.

    Most of the time we are hoping someone else will be the one to do it. What if we stopped waiting on others and told our story. What if we said, “I’ll start.” “I’ll Start” is a podcast where individuals bravely share their stories, listen with compassion, and connect through their faith and mental health experiences.

    Each episode of “I’ll Start” highlights a personal story of mental health challenge, endurance, and hope. At the end of each episode, you will receive mental health tools and theological truth from our Co-hosts, Morgan Arseneau and Heather Kaloupek.

    If you or someone you know is struggling with mental health, call 9-8-8 to speak to a professional 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. You are not alone.

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    34 min
  • Hannah's Story
    Nov 4 2025

    In this episode of I’ll Start, Hannah shares what it’s like to live inside a mind that won’t turn off. From childhood panic attacks to compulsions that made everyday moments like church, Target runs, and dinners with friends feel impossible, she names the shame, fear, and exhaustion of living with OCD. Heather unpacks radical acceptance and the Both/And mindset—learning to say, “This is hard, and I’m not alone.” Morgan reflects on Psalm 34:18 and reminds us that God is close to the brokenhearted, even when the struggle doesn’t go away.

    Key Takeaways:

    • Radical acceptance asks us to name our pain as the starting point for growth. • The Both/And mindset helps us hold two concepts at once: “I’m struggling, and I can still take a step forward.” • God’s presence is not measured by our circumstances; He meets us in the middle of our reality, not after it’s all resolved.

    💬 Let’s keep the conversation going!

    Follow @illstartpodcast on Instagram and Facebook for behind-the-scenes moments, listener reflections, and new episode updates.

    Together, we share, listen, and connect.

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    One of the most difficult parts of mental health struggle is feeling alone. Shame, fear, and stigma keep us isolated and reinforce the belief I am the only one who struggles with mental health. When someone shares their struggle with us, suddenly we have hope. Even when pain is present, there is something so healing about being in community. How do we build a community in the middle of our struggle?

    Someone needs to start the conversation.

    Most of the time we are hoping someone else will be the one to do it. What if we stopped waiting on others and told our story. What if we said, “I’ll start.” “I’ll Start” is a podcast where individuals bravely share their stories, listen with compassion, and connect through their faith and mental health experiences.

    Each episode of “I’ll Start” highlights a personal story of mental health challenge, endurance, and hope. At the end of each episode, you will receive mental health tools and theological truth from our Co-hosts, Morgan Arseneau and Heather Kaloupek.

    If you or someone you know is struggling with mental health, call 9-8-8 to speak to a professional 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. You are not alone.

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    31 min
  • Coming Soon - Season 2 of I'll Start
    Oct 15 2025

    We’re back! Season 2 of I’ll Start launches October 21! Join Heather, Morgan, and Fred as they share what’s ahead: more stories of mental health and faith, honest conversations about courage and healing, and a reminder that your story matters.

    This sneak peek dives into what it means to integrate Scripture and psychology, to hold both faith and evidence-based tools with integrity, and to build a bridge where hope lives in both. If you’ve ever heard “you just need to pray harder” or “mental health struggles mean weak faith,” this season is for you.

    What to look for this season:

    1. Real stories of anxiety, OCD, trauma, and addiction
    2. Faith-filled conversations that don’t shy away from hard questions
    3. Hope, empathy, and a safe space to say “I’ll start.”

    Season 2 premieres October 21. Follow I’ll Start wherever you listen to podcasts and be part of the community that’s sharing, listening, and connecting faith and mental health — one story at a time.

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    One of the most difficult parts of mental health struggle is feeling alone. Shame, fear, and stigma keep us isolated and reinforce the belief I am the only one who struggles with mental health. When someone shares their struggle with us, suddenly we have hope. Even when pain is present, there is something so healing about being in community. How do we build a community in the middle of our struggle?

    Someone needs to start the conversation.

    Most of the time we are hoping someone else will be the one to do it. What if we stopped waiting on others and told our story. What if we said, “I’ll start.” “I’ll Start” is a podcast where individuals bravely share their stories, listen with compassion, and connect through their faith and mental health experiences.

    Each episode of “I’ll Start” highlights a personal story of mental health challenge, endurance, and hope. At the end of each episode, you will receive mental health tools and theological truth from our Co-hosts, Morgan Arseneau and Heather Kaloupek.

    If you or someone you know is struggling with mental health, call 9-8-8 to speak to a professional 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. You are not alone.

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    5 min
  • Season 1 Wrap-Up
    Jun 13 2025

    In this Season 1 finale of I’ll Start, Heather, Morgan, and Fred sit down—this time with all three mics on—to reflect on how the podcast began, what they’ve learned, and what happened behind the scenes.

    They answer listener questions, talk about when it’s time to seek help, and share how faith and vulnerability shaped the season. It’s honest, hopeful, and the perfect way to close out Season 1.

    If you’re struggling with depression, you’re not alone. Here are some trusted resources that can offer support, guidance, and hope;

    Crisis Support & Hotlines: • 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline – Call or text 988 (Available 24/7 in the U.S.) | 988lifeline.org • Crisis Text Line – Text HOME to 741741 for free, 24/7 support | crisistextline.org • National Alliance on Mental Illness (NAMI) Helpline – Call 1-800-950-NAMI (6264) or text “HelpLine” to 62640 | nami.org/help • SAMHSA National Helpline (Substance Abuse & Mental Health Services) – Call 1-800-662-HELP (4357) | samhsa.gov

    Faith-Based Support: • GriefShare – Support groups for those struggling with loss | griefshare.org • Focus on the Family Counseling – Free one-time consultations with licensed counselors | Call 1-855-771-HELP (4357) | focusonthefamily.com • Find a Christian Counselor – aacc.net (American Association of Christian Counselors)

    Therapy & Mental Health Resources: • Psychology Today’s Therapist Finder – Find a licensed therapist near you | psychologytoday.com/us/therapists • Open Path Collective – Affordable therapy options | openpathcollective.org • To Write Love on Her Arms – Mental health resources & encouragement | twloha.com/find-help • BetterHelp – Online therapy platform | betterhelp.com Community & Self-Help: • Celebrate Recovery – Christ-centered support groups for mental health and addiction | celebraterecovery.com • The Mighty – An online mental health community | themighty.com • National Institute of Mental Health (NIMH) – Reliable information on depression | nimh.nih.gov • Crisis Text Line: Text HELLO to 741741 (24/7, free, confidential) • Suicide & Crisis Lifeline (U.S.): Dial 988 • National Alliance on Mental Illness (NAMI): https://www.nami.org/help or call 1-800-950-NAMI

    You don’t have to do this alone. If you’re struggling, please reach out to a trusted friend, pastor, or therapist. You are not meant to carry this burden by yourself—there are people who care and want to support you. Asking for help is a brave and powerful step toward healing.

    One of the most difficult parts of mental health struggle is feeling alone. Shame, fear, and stigma keep us isolated and reinforce the belief I am the only one who struggles with mental health. When someone shares their struggle with us, suddenly we have hope. Even when pain is present, there is something so healing about being in community. How do we build a community in the middle of our struggle?

    Someone needs to start the conversation.

    Most of the time we are hoping someone else will be the one to do it. What if we stopped waiting on others and told our story. What if we said, “I’ll start.” “I’ll Start” is a podcast where individuals bravely share their stories, listen with compassion, and connect through their faith and mental health experiences. Each episode of “I’ll Start” highlights a personal story of mental health challenge, endurance, and hope. At the end of each episode, you will receive mental health tools and theological truth from our Co-hosts, Morgan Arseneau and Heather Kaloupek.

    If you or someone you know is struggling with mental health, call 9-8-8 to speak to a professional 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. You are not alone.

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    26 min
  • Brian's Story
    May 30 2025

    This is Brian's story.

    What happens when the version of success you were chasing no longer works? In this vulnerable episode, Brian shares how a season of depression led to a deeper, more honest version of his calling. As a young man in ministry, Brian wanted to be the hero—but over time, he discovered that connection comes not from perfection, but from shared struggle.

    This episode explores how pride can keep us isolated, how vulnerability builds connection, and what it means to surrender to God’s voice in the quiet.

    Themes:

    Pride, vulnerability, depression, ministry, mental health, calling, faith, identity, healing, connection

    Key Resources & Reflections:

    • Isaiah 30:15 – “In repentance and rest is your salvation, in quietness and trust is your strength…”

    • Psalm 46:10 – “Be still and know that I am God.”

    • Conversation around defense mechanisms, emotional avoidance, and the difference between connection and performance

    • Reflection on the spiritual formation that happens in seasons of struggle

    • Prompt for listeners: Where do you connect more with the struggler or the hero?

    We want to hear from you! We’re preparing a special Season One finale episode—and we’d love to include your voice. Send us your questions, thoughts, or reflections at info@illstartpodcast.com

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    One of the most difficult parts of mental health struggle is feeling alone. Shame, fear, and stigma keep us isolated and reinforce the belief I am the only one who struggles with mental health. When someone shares their struggle with us, suddenly we have hope. Even when pain is present, there is something so healing about being in community. How do we build a community in the middle of our struggle?

    Someone needs to start the conversation.

    Most of the time we are hoping someone else will be the one to do it. What if we stopped waiting on others and told our story. What if we said, “I’ll start.” “I’ll Start” is a podcast where individuals bravely share their stories, listen with compassion, and connect through their faith and mental health experiences. Each episode of “I’ll Start” highlights a personal story of mental health challenge, endurance, and hope. At the end of each episode, you will receive mental health tools and theological truth from our Co-hosts, Morgan Arseneau and Heather Kaloupek.

    If you or someone you know is struggling with mental health, call 9-8-8 to speak to a professional 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. You are not alone.

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    23 min
  • Stephanie's Story
    May 16 2025

    This is Stephanie's story.

    Stephanie’s story begins in the overwhelm of early marriage, new motherhood, and the crushing pressure to hold it all together. From the outside, she seemed steady. Inside, she was unraveling.

    In this episode of I’ll Start, Stephanie opens up about the hidden battles behind perfectionism, the guilt and rage that surfaced in parenting, and the slow, faithful path toward healing.

    This story is for anyone who’s ever hit their limit and wondered: Could this also be a turning point?

    In this episode, we explore: • Oversharing, shame, and vulnerability • When anxiety is really about love and responsibility • Rage in motherhood and the weight of unrealistic expectations • How scripture and counseling helped Stephanie heal • The lie that “you should be able to figure this out” on your own

    Resources Mentioned: • Unhindered: Thirty Days to Liberate the Heart by Charity Byers & John Walker https://renew.org/resources/unhindered-book • Philippians 4:4–7 (“Rejoice in the Lord always…The Lord is near…Do not be anxious…”)

    Reflection Prompt: Have you ever felt like you were too much? What’s one small way you can move toward truth or support this week?

    We want to hear from you! We’re preparing a special Season One finale episode—and we’d love to include your voice. Send us your questions, thoughts, or reflections at info@illstartpodcast.com

    Connect With Us: X: @illstartpodcast Instagram: @illstartpodcast Facebook: I’ll Start Tag us and share your thoughts using #IllStartPodcast

    One of the most difficult parts of mental health struggle is feeling alone. Shame, fear, and stigma keep us isolated and reinforce the belief I am the only one who struggles with mental health. When someone shares their struggle with us, suddenly we have hope. Even when pain is present, there is something so healing about being in community. How do we build a community in the middle of our struggle?

    Someone needs to start the conversation.

    Most of the time we are hoping someone else will be the one to do it. What if we stopped waiting on others and told our story. What if we said, “I’ll start.” “I’ll Start” is a podcast where individuals bravely share their stories, listen with compassion, and connect through their faith and mental health experiences. Each episode of “I’ll Start” highlights a personal story of mental health challenge, endurance, and hope. At the end of each episode, you will receive mental health tools and theological truth from our Co-hosts, Morgan Arseneau and Heather Kaloupek.

    If you or someone you know is struggling with mental health, call 9-8-8 to speak to a professional 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. You are not alone.

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    32 min
  • Nic's Story
    May 2 2025

    This is Nic's story.

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    One of the most difficult parts of mental health struggle is feeling alone. Shame, fear, and stigma keep us isolated and reinforce the belief I am the only one who struggles with mental health. When someone shares their struggle with us, suddenly we have hope. Even when pain is present, there is something so healing about being in community. How do we build a community in the middle of our struggle?

    Someone needs to start the conversation.

    Most of the time we are hoping someone else will be the one to do it. What if we stopped waiting on others and told our story. What if we said, “I’ll start.” “I’ll Start” is a podcast where individuals bravely share their stories, listen with compassion, and connect through their faith and mental health experiences. Each episode of “I’ll Start” highlights a personal story of mental health challenge, endurance, and hope. At the end of each episode, you will receive mental health tools and theological truth from our Co-hosts, Morgan Arseneau and Heather Kaloupek.

    If you or someone you know is struggling with mental health, call 9-8-8 to speak to a professional 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. You are not alone.

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    29 min
  • Abbey's Story
    Apr 18 2025

    This is Abbey's story.

    In this tender episode of I’ll Start, Abbey shares how anxiety slowly crept into her life, stealing her sense of joy—even in the spaces she loved most. With honesty and heart, she talks about the moment she realized she needed to name her anxiety instead of hiding it, and how that act became a turning point in her healing.

    Abbey opens up about the pressure to appear okay, the struggle of holding it all together, and how both faith and therapy helped her begin the journey back to herself.

    In the Post-Story Discussion, Heather and Morgan dive deeper into the power of “naming it to tame it,” a mental health principle rooted in brain science, and how it aligns with our faith. They explore how anxiety can reveal what matters to us, and how God’s perfect love can ground us when fear feels overwhelming.

    If you’ve ever felt anxious, unseen, or like your peace has gone quiet—this episode is for you. And if it resonates, share it with a friend who might need to hear it too.

    Resources from Abbey’s Story:

    1. “Name It to Tame It” – Dr. Dan Siegel

    This phrase comes from brain-based research on how naming our emotions helps regulate them. Learn more:

    • Dan Siegel’s Website
    • Book: The Whole-Brain Child by Daniel J. Siegel & Tina Payne Bryson

    2. Scripture Reflection: 1 John 4:18

    “There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear…”

    This verse reminds us that God’s love is greater than our anxiety—and invites us to root our identity in Him.

    3. Mental Health Tool: Emotional Check-In

    Try this simple tool:

    • Pause
    • Name what you’re feeling
    • Ask: “What is this emotion trying to protect or show me?”
    • Invite God into that space with grace, not shame

    4. Recommended Devotional:

    “Anxious for Nothing” by Max Lucado - Faith-based encouragement for those navigating anxiety.

    5. Crisis + Professional Support Resources:

    • National Alliance on Mental Illness (NAMI): nami.org
    • Faithful Counseling (Christian therapy online): faithfulcounseling.com
    • In a crisis? Text HOME to 741741 to reach a crisis counselor via the Crisis Text Line (U.S. only)

    6. Book Recommendation:

    The Anxious Generation: How the Great Rewiring of Childhood Is Causing an Epidemic of Mental Illness by Jonathan Haidt

    A powerful exploration of the cultural shifts—especially around screen time and social media—that have shaped today’s mental health landscape. This book pairs well with Abbey’s story and offers practical insight for parents, leaders, and anyone who cares about the next generation.

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    One of the most difficult parts of mental health struggle is feeling alone. Shame, fear, and stigma keep us isolated and reinforce the belief I am the only one who struggles with mental health. When someone shares their struggle with us, suddenly we have hope. Even when pain is present, there is something so healing about being in community. How do we build a community in the middle of our struggle?

    Someone needs to start the conversation.

    Most of the time we are hoping someone else will be the one to do it. What if we stopped waiting on others and told our story. What if we said, “I’ll start.” “I’ll Start” is a podcast where individuals bravely share their stories, listen with compassion, and connect through their faith and mental health experiences. Each episode of “I’ll Start” highlights a personal story of mental health challenge, endurance, and hope. At the end of each episode, you will receive mental health tools and theological truth from our Co-hosts, Morgan Arseneau and Heather Kaloupek.

    If you or someone you know is struggling with mental health, call 9-8-8 to speak to a professional 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. You are not alone.

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    28 min