Mental health is a very important topic for me, as I’ve been through it myself and I want to help others to overcome their anxieties and depression. For many people, it’s a very hard topic to talk about, and many people find it embarrassing. I know this because I was one of those people who did not like talking about it. I was afraid people will think I’m weak. If only I knew talking about it to someone will help me more than I can ever imagine. People who are experiencing depression and anxiety don’t really have many people in their life, or they are not comfortable enough to talk to someone. Trusting people is very difficult because you don’t know who you can rely on. 

When I first experienced panic attacks, the first thing I thought was: “This is it, I’m going to die.” Having that thought terrified me, and all I was thinking about was “I haven’t prayed,” “I haven’t been focusing on my religion,” “I probably committed a lot of sins,” “My family isn’t with me.” I had so many thoughts in my head, which made it even worse. I was struggling to calm myself down. This all happened in the beginning of May 2018. It was one of my worst years ever, and I never in my life thought I would go back to how I use to be. Ever since that day, I would continuously get panic attacks to the point where I wouldn’t travel on my own. I was struggling with going to work, being around too many people, going to parties, being alone, and many more. Till this day, my breathing is something that I am struggling with and sometimes, I do still feel a little anxious when I feel like I can’t breathe anymore. 

I just want to tell everyone that it will get all better within time, and if you talk to the right people. I was lucky enough to have a few people in my life that I was able to talk to. One of my close friends has helped me a lot during my difficult times, and she made sure she checked up on me. I don’t know what I would’ve done without her. We all need someone like that in our life. 

What I can tell you now is if you follow a religion start praying and focusing on that more. You can do yoga, exercise at home, go on long walks with someone, always carry water with you, surround yourself with positive people, do some activities with your family and friends, drawing, writing, etc. I’ve done most of the activities, and it helped me more than I can ever imagine. You have to really push yourself with everything if you want to feel better, and, sometimes, you have to be selfish and put yourself first (I don’t really see it as being selfish, but some people may think we are being selfish for putting ourselves first). 

You WILL come out of this. One thing I told myself was no one knows how I am feeling, so they can’t really help. I kept on telling myself I need to push myself out of this. The truth is no one is going to understand how you are feeling but you. I’ve done a lot of research, and everything that I’ve done helped me a lot. I am slowly starting to go back to how I use to be. I’m becoming more confident. If you really want to get out of this misery, you will have to push yourself. I hope listening to this book will help you overcome your fears and help you with your anxieties and depression.

Just remember time heals all wounds, and you won’t feel like this forever.