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When God Becomes Real

Written by: Brian Johnson
Narrated by: Brian Johnson
Length: 4 hrs and 17 mins
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Panic snuck up on Brian Johnson while he was out with his son, and it clung to him on his desperate drive home. Feeling almost outside of himself, his family called 911. He was spiraling into darkness. Waiting for the ambulance to arrive, unsure of what was happening, he gathered his family around him and asked them to pray for him. Then he said these pivotal words, “This is when God becomes real.” In his first book, Brian shares how the panic and anxiety of his early life - panic he’d thought he’d beaten - came back to haunt him. After experiencing debilitating anxiety attacks from the age of seven into his early adult years, Brian learned how worship ushered in the presence of God and pushed the panic away. 

Now in his mid-30s and believing himself free, Brian had a vision for worship in the church, built a successful music label with his wife, and wrote award-winning songs and albums. He was at the height of his success, and from all appearances, things were better than ever. But in the midst of that success, the ghost of his childhood anxiety returned, stronger than ever, and it pulled Brian into a downward spiral of chaos and darkness.

In the year that would follow, Brian came to experience the ultimate power of surrendering the panic and chaos to God. Whether or not you’ve struggled with panic and anxiety, you’ve found yourself in pain, asking God for relief. In When God Becomes Real, Brian shares his vulnerable story of overcoming panic and anxiety. Discover how you might find God, even in your darkest hour.

©2019 Bethel Book Publishing (P)2019 Bethel Book Publishing

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This book was amazing. I listened to it in about 2 days. left feeling encouraged.

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A raw and authentic accounting of a collapse

Brian Johnson was tethered to God and yet he broke. He expresses a journey of pain that resulted in restoration in spite of the pain he and his family and his community experiences with him. He kept it real and authentic. Recommended for listen for the faith and non-faith community.

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Christians need to hear this

Brian is bold and transparent in this book. Many who struggle with anxiety feel a shame that says, “I should be leaning on God for peace but apparently I am not doing a good enough job because I’m having anxiety”. And, “Anxiety is a worldly problem that christians shouldn’t experience. The church will judge me.”
However, Brian shows in this book how God brought him through an even deeper relationship with Him through the darkness.
God is good.

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Wow, what a testimony!

This book came to me at the right time, I can now see a light at the end of tunnel and a weight has lifted, thank you Brian!

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Truth is written here.

It amazed me how much Brian's experiences related to mine. The panic and fear as a child, the whisper spoken of homosexuality, and the weight of not dealing with misunderstandings and hurt.

Honestly, it revealed to me that the enemy really has no new tricks up his sleeves. He uses the same tactics in different ways to destroy God's children.

But God... He has infinite number of ways to save us.

Thank you, Brian, for sharing your personal story. It was incredibly encouraging and strengthening.

This was so gripping and well read. I never wanted to pause from it!

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Finding Freedom

What a beautiful vulnerable book. Brian describes the horrors of anxiety so well. His honestly helps to break the shame and hopelessness of fear. God is good through thick and thin. Highly recommend to anyone who struggles with anxiety and or knows those who do. “Although God didn’t bring on the panic...” thank you for mentioning this!!

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  • Mary Beardsley
  • 2019-02-06

Raw and deeply moving

I would recommend this to anyone who has or is struggling with pain, anxiety and/or stress.
Also would recommend this to church leaders, worship team members, and parents.
When God Becomes Real is raw and deeply moving revealing an intense need for connection and wholeness found in the Creator. This book will empower you to take note of your heart and consider pain. And consider whether you pursue numbness or wholeness.

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  • L. Hernandez
  • San Francisco, CA
  • 2019-02-07

Amazing Testimony

A great testimony of perseverance and staying obedient to God’s healing promises. A great look into how Bethel Music was built, the trials and tribulations that made it what it is today. I love that Brian himself recorded the audio, it makes it so much more personal to hear it firsthand.

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  • Anonymous User
  • 2019-03-24

Fantastic Anointed Book

I really enjoyed listening to the book, this book touched my life and opened my eyes. This book is so beautiful and authentic and thats whats so fantastic and anointed about it.

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  • LeIda Love
  • 2019-03-22

wow! what else can I say!

this was amazing. what a rollercoaster! just wow! I finished this book in one night!

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  • Martha S.
  • Santa Clara, Ca
  • 2019-03-21

Deep & touching

My first Audible book and what a treat.
The author is very vulnerable and descriptive regarding his life’s experiences and at the end of his book talked about his recovery process from fear , panic and Debilitating anxiety. Also shared how Bethel music was born and boy what a story makes me appreciate him and his wife deeply.
I am a Bethel music fan to the core and my biggest desire is to visit Bethel over a weekend to experience all they have to offer there.
Thumbs up B. Johnson 👍🏼

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  • Sarah D.
  • 2019-08-13

Awesome job!

I wasn’t quite sure what to expect and I was blown away by God’s faithfulness and some of the reminders for things that I need changed in my life in this season. I know God will continue to use Brian’s story for others who are searching for hope & encouragement. Awesome job!!

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  • Timothy Jackson
  • 2019-08-01

what i needed

has been amazing blessing to listen to this book during my daily commute to and from work. the exact story I needed to hear!

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  • Amazon Customer
  • 2019-07-21

AMAZING

I am a nurse and have struggled with anxiety in the past. This book gives great insight into what anxiety looks like and how to help others. It is a must read.

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  • 2019-07-06

Raw. Beautiful. Freeing

Amazing story of pain, panic and redemption. I could feel the emotion behind the story. Brian is so accessible, inspirational and real. I've learnt from his journey!

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  • Anonymous User
  • 2019-06-18

Wow. Just, wow.

I've never struggled personally with anxiety, but as someone involved with a heart healing ministry, it allowed me to see a glimpse of what it's like in those moments I've heard so much about. Thank you Brian for your vulnerability!