"I was really determined to breastfeed. I just knew I’d power through it no matter what."

"The reality of motherhood and birth and all of that is very, like, dirty and it’s grizzly and it’s just very primal... No one can tell you what that’s like until you go through it."

Alexandra’s breastfeeding journey was far more challenging than she expected. She initially believed it would be natural and easy, but quickly realised the reality was much harder. She struggled with positioning and attachment, lacked proper guidance, and felt unprepared despite attending an antenatal class. The experience was emotionally and physically draining, contributing to her postnatal depression. She also faced intense sleep deprivation and frustration. Over time, things improved, but she deeply regretted not knowing more beforehand. Looking back, she gained immense respect for mothers who struggle with breastfeeding and now understands why some choose not to continue.

00:00 Introduction to the Holding Time Podcast

00:41 Birth Stories and Experiences

08:18 Challenges and Triumphs of Breastfeeding

12:47 Reflections on Motherhood

15:56 The Reality of Postnatal Depression

19:13 The Raw and Primal Side of Motherhood

23:29 The Misconceptions About Breastfeeding

25:41 Conclusion and Acknowledgements

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