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Jill Duggar
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Written by:
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Jill Duggar
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Derick Dillard
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Craig Borlase
About this listen
Jill and Derick knew a normal life wasn’t possible for them. As a star on the popular TLC reality show 19 Kids and Counting, Jill grew up in front of viewers who were fascinated by her family’s way of life. She was the responsible, second daughter of Jim Bob and Michelle’s nineteen kids; always with a baby on her hip and happy to wear the modest ankle-length dresses with throat-high necklines. She didn’t protest the strict model of patriarchy that her family followed, which declares that men are superior, that women are expected to be wives and mothers and are discouraged from attaining a higher education, and that parental authority over their children continues well into adulthood, even once they are married.
But as Jill got older, married Derick, and they embarked on their own lives, the red flags became too obvious to ignore.
For as long as they could, Jill and Derick tried to be obedient family members—but now they’re raising a family of their own, and they’re done with the secrets. Thanks to time, tears, therapy, and blessings from God, they have the strength to share their journey. Theirs is a “complicated, remarkably relatable story of faith and family loyalty” (Salon) and a moving example of how to find healing through honesty.
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Thank you Jill and Derek!
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In my 20s I casually watched this show when it because the 17,18,19 and was saddened beyond words when the events unfolded that Jill speaks of. I always thought they must have been forced to do the interview because it all felt so sickening and wrong. The strength and courage that it takes to step forward in any situation when there’s been SA is unfathomable. To think of being in this terrible cult and being brainwashed into such shame by you parents while all that occurred breaks my heart of those Duggar girls (women). The endearing way Jill speaks of Derrick shows how supportive he has been through advocating for her. It seems Jill finally has a man in her life that she can trust and that truly loves her for her. I hope so deeply for her and her boys that their marriage is that of an equal partnership and not a patriarchy. I’m sorry to Jill that she lost the people she grew up trusting the loving the most by trying to defend herself and speak her own truth. I hope for you Jill that some of your family can also leave this awful cult and walk into the reality of truth that wearing pants and attending public school aren’t going to harm anyone.
Jill has strength I hope other women of this cult find
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I especially love that she narrated it.
This was as good as I had expected!
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Heartbreaking, honest and very brave.
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Watched you from the start
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